... I wonder what it was (or is) like for you! I saw my catalyst yesterday. With her lover. Oddly the fact that she is with someone doesn't even bother me that much. Nothing can and will ever happen between her and me, that's a fact and it doesn't even make me sad, really. I'm happy with how much she's given me, without even knowing. It's just so crazy how strongly I feel. I'm not like myself. I feel like I am fourteen again and have one of those teenage hardcore crushes, where you just can't think about anything else. I dream of her almost every night. And this has been going on for months. Is this normal? I was thinking maybe I just pushed my 'crush capacity' down for so long that now that door is open, it's REALLY open, you know? Like 14 years of butterflies released. How was it for you? I would love to know! -Mia
My catalyst is with me very often because she is my best friend. Sadly she'll never know how much she really means to me. So it's making me little bit sad but as long as she finds someone nice it's cool. Being with her is amazing! She understands me almost perfectly, we are alike in many things. Overall I'm just so happy I met her. She really saved my guts back then. xd And yea I believe your reaction is perfectly normal. Happy memories can't be supressed that easily xd
The person that made you realize you weren't straight lol. As for me, I still talk to him on a daily basis and wish we were in bed but it doesn't seem like it's gonna happen :icon_sad:
Hey, Thanks for your replies. It's so interesting hearing your experinces! Were your catalysts queer, too?
It is normal, anything goes. Its been couple years since I met mine, and the feelings are still strong. I've accepted the fact that it may take a while longer, so yes, butterflies, thoughts, you name it, she is special, end of story.
