My Mum just rang and we got chatting and she asked how my husband and I were. I can't lie at the best of times but I certainly can't lie to her. Idiot over here blurted everything out :bang: Sh*t!! I'm so close to tears right now and I'm at work. She was amazing as always but said she'd be so upset if we separated and "could I not learn to love him like that?" I feel so ashamed. Help
You have nothing to be ashamed of.. you just told her what was really happening. There's nothing wrong with that. It's ok. Slow down
I get it. I grew up in a black church that preached about the Sodomites alot, and really loved the old testament. Up until a few years ago I knew I was gay but thought that marrying a woman was the only thing I could do, because of those mistakes I actually lost my virginity to a girl. I was lucky enough to realize my mistake at 15 because I had several close friends who helped me out because they knew who I was, but I really could've ended up marrying that girl. It really helps to put things in perspective, you're 36, you have only used up a third of your life and most people fine "the one" at least 3 different times. Everything is not over, you're still young and got a lot of life and love ahead of you.
As previous poster have said, you have nothing to be ashamed about. You should live your life for you (which I know isn't always easy). Nobody justifies their life choices to you. You don't need to justify yours to anyone else. Also, don't be so hard on yourself. I think you've been incredibly brave. I've not read all your posts, but you appear to be making amazing progress. Take care (*hug*)
Just seen to a couple of patients and managed to calm down. She said 'I'm going to hang up now before I start crying" I wanted to sit down with her and talk through everything. Why did I do that?! Lol. Thanks for replying guys. I think she's just worried I'll end up a lonely old spinster. Although she loves gay men (the camp ones) she can't bear to think of 2 women together. She's always known about my encounters with girls/women but still says "it's a phase" I'm 36 Mum!! This "phase" has lasted 20 years!!:roflmao:
Be sure, she is probably surprised and in a bit of shock. She will need to go through her own morning process so to speak. Have patience. Sounds like you have a good mom.
Hey take a deep breath. You don't need to feel ashamed. Give it time and after a while you will be glad you did it even f it doesn't feel like it. (*hug*)
