You know, I've read a lot on here, EC has been my safe place, the place where I've gone to over the past year or so to hear what people have to say so that I can better understand what I'm going through myself. I was going to search the forum for the 'I felt gay today' thread when I realised that everytime I log on here I know that I am with my people. You guys have been the first people I came out to, I don't feel like I have to respond to every thread to know that I am among friends, who have been through similar but at the same time very different experiences, but there is a beautiful, and I don't know a better word right now, sense of us being in this together. Right now, I'm not feeling low, I'm feeling a sense of knowing who I am - a gay woman - trying to discover herself later in life - but knowing the outcome with absolute certainty. I've had encounters, meetings with women, but one woman in particular, where all I want is to experience that sense of being at one with myself and with her so that I can realise who I truly am. When it comes down to it, all I want is for that person to give a f*** about me, to want to be with me, to get to know me, to share our lives and find out if this is what we're meant to be together. It sounds simplistic but to me our gender doesn't matter, I gravitate towards the female conversations on this site but I'm just as enlightened by the male (on the highway - can I take a mulligan - I'm Irish and I just learnt the true meaning of a mulligan) or transgender or intersex or genderneutral or whatever conversations we're having. I don't think any of us here are asking much more than that simple request, care...love me for who am I, please get to know me...I'm worth knowing. Love, and warm thoughts to all you guys (in the most gender neutral sense of the term) out there tonight. ---------- Post added 28th Apr 2017 at 12:51 AM ---------- I'd probably put a good ole 'n' in the thread title, sorry.
This is why I feel safe. Thank you. ---------- Post added 28th Apr 2017 at 01:20 AM ---------- And you NerdByNature, right back at you. And when I say safe, I mean it...my mind has a calmness that I'm not sure I'd find anywhere else one year on from a wake up call.
Great post ConfusedHappy! I think I literally googled 'later in life lesbian' or something like that looking for support for people like me, and this site came up. I knew people came out later in life, but until this site the only people I 'knew' were TV stars! I clicked EC that first time and saw a bunch of regular people chatting about the exact same things I was going through! Wow! Everyone sharing their triumphs and struggles and all the nuances of their journey. I too immediately felt 'among my people'. I have to give a shout out to Google---for leading me here!
