I've been pretty sure I'm a lesbian for a while now, like I'm not attracted to guys in that way, although I do tend to get along with them better off the bat, but don't actually have many guy friends. I have a crush on my female best friend and I'm aware that I check girls out on a regular basis. But I'm kind of confused because I prefer watching gay porn over lesbian porn (granted most of it is so fake, but still). And it happens that I get turned on when watching straight porn. Do I like gay porn because I like men or because it's more realistic than lesbian porn? Do I like het porn because of the guys or because I want someone doing those things to me, whether it be a man or a woman?
Actually....liking gay porn as a lesbian is very very common. There are a lot of lesbians who don't like lesbian porn at all. I'm one of those lesbians that prefers gay and het porn. It has nothing to do with attraction to men and everything to do with the poor quality of lesbian porn. Porn preferences have nothing to do with sexuality. Saying someone is secretly straight for liking gay porn is like saying someone is secretly a psychopathic killer for watching horror movies. There is no correlation.
Thanks, it's reassuring to hear that. I've been spending a lot of time in my head and I tend to overthink things...
I'm the same way. In fact, lesbian porn rarely does anything for me, but I like straight and gay porn. I think it's that lesbian porn is usually so fake, I just can't find it believable on any level. Generally speaking, I think it's very common to be into things in porn that you're not into in real life.