Just reading through my facebook messages with my best friend made me realize I really tried hard to suppress my homosexuality. Looking through it all I'm so happy that I found myself, I was definitely trying too hard to not be gay by pretending to be so into rap and the stereotype of a masculine man. It's just cringe worthy reading through some of the messages I wrote. Like wow, I was really trying to be straight by rejecting everything that made me seem feminine. I was so stupid if only I wasn't like that. I feel like my young adult years clearly properly reflect me as a person and I forgot to say, before I came out I tested the waters with my friend and by god it was so much cringe. Who here just had a personality that makes them cringe nowadays.
When I was younger, I was an emotional disaster. Completely unstable. And that often made me...just an awful person. That's not to say I'm not a terrible person now at times, but...yea. I did have a past personality that's cringeworthy. I'd punch past me in the face.
I suspect most of us (including me) had cringeworthy behaviors when we were younger. And it isn't necessarily limited to the teen years, either
You can actually see my OLD posts when I was about 16. Ugh. Still cringe-worthy. But, I wouldn't punch myself. I would probably hug her and tell her it's okay.
As a 18 year old I'm still a teenager I guess (even if I see 'teenager' from 13-17) but looking back I see I behaved pretty weird sometimes, also being afraid of 'becoming hetero' one day so everyone could just smile and tell me: We've told you so. This was before I found out that being trans* is a thing actually ^^" Appart from that I lied unbelievable much @.@ All in all I guess I wouldn't like me if I'd met my past me today and have some serious conversations with him. But hey he became me anyways and in some way that's not that bad xD
Hell, I did something cringe-worthy just this morning!!!! Ahahaha. I can't get over how stupid I feel.
Try being gay and growing up in a religious background where nobody tells you anything about it, other than it's bad. I was so happy when I finally started being who I really was and not who people wanted me to be.
Yea I really hate who I was in middle school. I was so edgy and groos and bleh. I'm glad I'm more open with myself and not who I was before. If I ever saw old, younger me I'd push myself away with a ten meter stick like no bye
