I have a question....I have no disgust what so ever with a guy's dick. I have given a blowjob before....I am not disgusted at all by holding it or touching. But like...both with guys and girls I guess...when being intimate with them...I remember having a time where I kissed a girl and I remember not wanting to go any further or being aroused much at all by wanting to grab her anywhere. And then with guys....like I don't mind touching their dick at all or anything like that....I guess when giving intimacy I dont have much arousal or if I do I dont recognize it....Am I having problems or??? Its like I get turned on by being kissed by them....especially I have had it happen with guys...I have gotten wet from being kissed and touched by them....but IDK I am not a crazy animal who goes..."OMG I MUST HAVE YOU!!!!" or "OH I HAVE TO SUCK IT!" Things like that.....
We all are different with intimacy. Not everyone is an animal when it comes to intimacy. Some people are more demure. Both are good. Don't get hung up on that. Enjoy your moments with other people. Be a good and giving lover and let your partner be good and giving in return.
It s all good! Humans are unique individuals that includes sexuality and intimacy. Don't be too hard on yourself. There's not really a "right" reaction.