whats your story

Well i started this thread because i want to talk to other people like me
I am 23 and gay
so this all started 2 yr before I fell in love with one of my friend who is straight
But still i told him that i love him which makes him to avoid me and ignore me
Which really pissed me off but i continue to try to gain his attention and win his love
And always flirt with him when he was alone
After few months he started responding to me and sometime he would flirt with me
too and we started to getting close to each other
As we live in the same building ,i live just one floor above him ,so we were having lots of time
to see each other i started spending lots of time with him many times i sleep in his room also
Then one night i was sleeping next to him
( i know he flirt with me but i was not sure he loved me or not
because he never told me that)
So i was nervous to do anything but i slip close to him put my arm around his chest
He didnt resist then i touched his cheeks and started rubbing his lips with my thumb
His eyes were closed but i know he was awake so i kissed him in cheeks and wait for a moment
Because inside my heart was beating like its going to explode
He didnt resist so i kissed him in lips and this make me more confident then i started kissing him and
and grabbed him in my arms i touched him all over his body
We even remove clothes that night ,we slept close to each other in each others arm.
But next morning he kindda act weird he act like nothing happen that night
Which was frustrating me so i started forcing myself to him which makes him angry many times

He is very aggressive and i am also very short tempered so we end up fighting one night which was pretty bad .He hit me and abused me ( i burst into tears bcoz i love him so much that i cant fight with him )
and he told me that he will never talk to me
But i didnt leave him untill he cooled down
He was not ready to talk and i was not ready to leave
So finally we talk after few hours and he told me that our friendship will only continue if
I promise to him not to touch him again and to never to talk about this thing in the future

i still love him badly we are still friends but we talk very less and i cant touch him because of the promise
And it hurts me too much
I still wonder what make him change
He live like a stranger to me


If someone else has any stories about him/her please let us know ur story

 

Yes you may be right
But i am not able to get him out of my head
I think i have become too obsessed with him.

 

Thanks for replying
I always know this is the only way to get out of this problem
But i kept waiting thinking might be he would love me someday

 

Hello friends,
I hv stopped running after him now
And now i feel much relaxed,i am back to life once again
Thankyou all for your help and support