For as long as i can remember I've felt special towards men. later I discovered that feeling was called being gay. and I started resenting girls. I never had any hickups about it. ever. I was proud. I grew up with an amount of mental issues and terrible physique. The fact that you could be one way and that people would hate and resent you for it because they don't understand or know was just part of my everyday life. I got shit for being fat, I got shit for being autistic and weird, and I got shit for being gay. and I couldn't do shit about any of these they were just part of me. so feeling real internal shame towards myself I never did. when I was 17 I started having some awkward hook ups because I was super desperate... I only really started dating since the start of college. The problem is, i'm 24 now. I've had a lot of sex, gotten into the bdsm scene, done a bunch of fetish shit, sex parties, regular old hook ups and dating. and no guy has ever been able to make me cum. not from blowjobs, not from anal top or bottom, not from jerking me off. nothing. not even ever coming close either. At first I kept thinking oh, this guy must just not be good at sex... the next one will be better. but it never got any better. sex has never been worth the trouble. and as much as I tried to just enjoy the neverending casual contacts, i couldn't help but feel used afterwards, especially when they'd ignore me afterwards. so I tried dating for something serious. but it seems nobody really wants that from me. sex is easy to get and I get offered plenty. but nobody I like ever seems to want to be with me. and when they do and I tell them I don't like sex, they walk away... for as long as I can remember, I've had these regular bouts of insane urges telling me that I want to and should try to have sex with chicks. it always came and went, but now it's continuously under the surface. straight porn is all i can jerk it to anymore. I know I don't like girls physically as much as guys. not waaaay as much. I'm emotionally and physically attracted to men. but I don't like to have sex with guys , I want to have sex with girls, but I don't feel physically or emotionally attracted to them at all... so what the fuck am i and what the fuck is going on and what do i do... I have sexual urges and shit but I can't get off with anyone. I just want to enjoy sex like other people...
Maybe you are one of the people who only likes sex when in love? And maybe try having sex with a girl and see if you can get into it?
Idk, I've got this friend who's a male escort and stripper... he's got pictures of him "working" aka, fucking and getting sucked in a skimpy outfit by a room full of drunk ladies... He's taking me out to a club to pick up a girl together... pretty sure this is my best chance at spontaneously getting there. I've been in love with a guy before I think... but we didn't have sex... we kissed and hugged a lot but I don't think we ever had sex... turns out he loved tickling people and I straight up break-a-bottle-over-your-head-if-you-do-that-again hate getting tickled. so I lashed out and he got scared so we didn't have sex... looking back I've never loved anyone more than him...
Are you attracted to vaginas? ---------- Post added 23rd Jan 2017 at 06:32 PM ---------- Are you attracted to vaginas? I think ive read your posts and it seems like you dont enjoy any sorta sensation whether its a mouth or ass.. maybe you have htese urges because your human and you want to be satisfied. so your looking for the answers even in the opposite sex u dont find attractive.
I've thought about that too... But I've been having these momentary urges since I was about 16 I guess... as I said they came and went, but every time they came it came a little sooner and lasted longer... right now it's almost constant. It's with me as much as I think of guys. sometimes while I am masturbating and there's a missionary pov scene I do sometimes think wow she's pretty... but it's always like that thought disturbs me a little even though I think it's hot... after masturbating I lose those thoughts though. ---------- Post added 24th Jan 2017 at 05:54 PM ---------- P.S. at 16 I hadn't had full on sex with anyone yet. I still fully expected getting fucked to feel great.
