in grade 6, there was this girl (let's call her jen) who i really wanted to be friends with. jen would always hang out with another of my friends (let's call her alex). i found my old diary and this was written in it: "I'm going to write about how I really wish Jen would like me. Am I jealous of Alex? you could say that. Jen even seems to like [name] and [name] better than she likes me. Except.... at recess, Jen and I had eraser fights [some game we used to play i think??] When I hang out with Jen, Alex always comes along. I still like Alex though." in a later entry, i write about how excited i was that i was invited to jen's birthday party, which not all of our classmates were invited to. i don't remember having any desires to kiss or touch this girl or anything beyond really wanting to be her friend and wanting her to like me. do you think this was a crush? whether or not it was a crush is not incredibly important to me, i'm just curious what you all think because i honestly don't know.
Personally, it just sounds like typical youngster behavior to me. You liked Jen and wanted to be her friend. Jealousy about another person (an intruder into your friendship with Jen) is not uncommon. Even if you liked "the intruder" as well. I've experienced a similar situation. I wouldn't read to much into it.
Agree. It has to be stronger for a crush. When it's a real crush, you won't be asking if it is one. You will have other questions popping up though.
