Hi everyone, name is Chris 29 im from Australia, and im gay Started seeing a shrink recently and she has helped me see everything that my shame of being gay has put me through, i've developed some slight gender dysphoria because of it, i've been asexual for along time, i've even developed some eating dissorders/anxiety disorders because of it but my desire for a man is getting to strong, i've even been thinking about what it would be like to have a husband lately, but still i have fear of being sexually intimate with another man, fear of getting std/sti, its stopped me from dating, even maybe become a little agoraphobic (there are other reasons as well hard times etc), i just feel really trapt in the whole coming out thing its terrifying me My mum is asexual which makes it harder, When i said, about gender dysphoria, i would rationalise to myself that i like men, i want to be a woman so that its normal, or at first it was maybe if i was a woman i would still be with me ex, i've even cross dressed a little, but i do kinda like being in a man's body i think and my shrink helped me discover that this was because i felt ashamed of being gay My shrink has only just got me to be comfortable enough to say the words im gay or i like men or i want a husband out loud
