Hi, my name is Robert and I'm not sure about the sexuality I belong to. Let me explain. Since I was a little kid I've always felt different from the majority of the people that surrounded me. I used to play with kitchen stuff and forget about the "manly" toys at a very young age (I even asked my mum for a you cleaning set, so you get that I wasn't what it's called "normal" at my age). Well, moving on... I really didn't express any kind of attraction for both boys and girls until I was a little older, about 7-9 years, when I remember that I watched a video on youtube where a young guy was singing and I really liked him. So much that I printed a photo of his face and kept it on my mum's car backseat for weeks. From that age until I was 13, I kind of forgot about the "gay" things that I used to do in the past, but one day, more like a curiosity I turned to watch gay porn and even though at first it seemed kind of weird, I ended up watching it and enjoying what I was seeing. Since then, I started looking at boys again. My heterosexuality was becoming a thing of the past and my homosexuality was growing at a very fast pace, I suppose. Now I'm 16 and confused. I told my friend that I was gay some weeks ago, mainly because I had to tell somebody and she's been so supportive and nice about it. I had never "fall in love" with a boy even though I've fancied some until now. Recently I started fancying a boy from my school, and that's another reason why I told my friend. I don't really see myself with this boy since we simply don't match together, but the important thing here is that I've kind of "fallen in love" with him, not as a long-term relation but more like being just boyfriends. The problem that I find and what keeps me up at night is the fact that even thoght I prefer boys over girls now, I don't see myself in the future with a man, like when I'll be 30-40. I don't have any problems having a boyfriend at late 20s but like I don't imagine myself being part of a gay couple when I'll be that old (I know that 40 years old is not old but, you understand what I mean). I guess it all depends on the age, because as I'm getting older and older, I start looking at boys that are the same age as me and I think that this is what is going to continue happening. But the thing is that I somehow get turned on by heterosexual porn and lesbian porn which technically, shouldn't happen??? I've never had a girlfriend nor a boyfriend (The boy that I mentioned early is just what you call a crush. We like flirt in class, but that hasn't escalated yet) I'm very confused because I don't really know what I am, so please, if you've experienced the same problems that I'm facing, please help me. Thanks in advance, Robert P.S:Also, I feel super comfortable with being a boy, don't get the information above wrong. P.P.S:Sorry for the mistakes that I've made. English is not my native tongue, Hope you understant. :lol:
It sounds like you are bisexual, but just have a preference for guys and there is nothing wrong with that. Some bisexual people will be more attracted towards the opposite sex or their own sex. Not every single bi person is the same and some bi people like myself are equally attracted to both sexes.
It may take more time for you to understand your sexuality. You may be bi, you may be gay. You can be bi with a greater preference to guys as being bi doesn't equaling mean 50/50 all the time. I think sometimes honestly it can take some time to figure it all out. Some people it is really easy, some it's a confusing journey. Just remember it's okay to be Bi or gay or anything else
