Glad that I'm not bothering to contact or pursue her for the time being, would like to believe it's aiding my calmness the past week or so. However I continue thinking about her for various reasons and it's always tinged with sadness.
Fuck. That sucks. Hope you get better soon. - Well, slow work day. And not that that's a bad thing cause I'm starting that new contract next week, where I'm basically working full time. My ass is saved for once.
This world is so messed up. I mean why must I prove who I am to you. I don't ask you to prove who you are.
Also, I kind of want to get my teaching certificate through an alternative teaching program but then I get to thinking, "if I couldn't complete a semester of student teaching, what makes me think I'd be able to complete a year under probation." I haven't brought this idea up to anyone in the program I was in up at the university. Maybe I should and see what they think. A part of me thinks I wasn't able to commit the time, mostly because I lived with my folks and couldn't have my own schedule. But then I think what if I'm blaming others for my own shortcomings.