I am from south carolina and i will be graduating college in December. I have a uncle that lives in a big city and he is the only person that knows I am a lesbian. I am out here right now visiting him and he has taken me out to some gay bars and i love it! It is totally different than back home. I feel more free and can be myself. I have always dreamed about moving away to a bigger city. My uncle and I have been in talks about me moving out here when I graduate but have not really set in stone if i am going to do it or not. At home I am not able to truly be myself and live the way i want to. Don't get me wrong i love my family and they mean the world to me but i can not come out to them. I come from a very conservative christian family and i don't see them ever being able to accept me for who i truly am. If it wasn't for my grandparents and nieces and nephews i would not be second guessing myself on whether i should move or not. I don't want to miss this time with my grand parents or being there to watch my nieces and nephews grow up. I am so torn with this decision because i want to be able to be myself and by happy but then I don't want to miss the time with family.
Is there any way you can do a trial period? Like you spend a couple of months with your uncle, to see if you really feel like staying their for longer? It's always important to be yourself, but I understand that family is important as well. In all honesty, the city isn't going to move anytime soon, family is for now. Do what works for you, I hope it works out! (Sorry Im not much help)
