Hey there ! I am Marcelina, 27, from France (well, I guess that will make me difficult to follow on some points... my English being poor in my opinion). There are many words that could define me, if I ever had to be put in cases as : changing my energy from male to female or female to male when needed, vegan, trying-to-learn-NVC, several languages speaker, archaeologist, reader, in works. I cannot properly answer the question "what define your sexuality and/or your gender" for I simply don't have the answer. I might say that my gender is mostly responding to Her/She but I don't really care, even if feminism is important to me. I care a lot about the Women' situation, I just don't care maybe about mine, maybe because I am lucky enough to not struggle with that everyday. But it was not like that for my whole life... I guess my father would have liked to raise a guy instead of me, and that put a lot of things to fix inside me, but I'm happy at the moment, and only that matters. About my sexuality, I cannot either accept the fact to be put in case... Doesn't mean that I dislike these cases, they opened my eyes and reading about all the colors of the sexuality rainbow, a bit everyday, is a unique source of self-building and education. But I don't know if I can enter in one of them. First because it changes everyday (at least I have this feeling) and second, because I really deeply feel that no matters the sex (or a-) or the gender (or a-), it's before all a question of life appointement. Will the right person(s) be in my path ? Do we feel the same ? I am looking for communion. I disrespected myself enough, either with men or women, and I want all that to be over. I try to destroy all the injonctions that raised as a wall around me, around my mind, some days it makes me sad, some days it makes me happy, most days I just feel alive. I think that I am here in the aim of meeting people with who I can properly exchange without being shew as the strange one. Without having to argue about the most little facts I could bring up just because people around me are cut of themselves... I need intelligence and real goodwill, not the everyday judgments that I can face here. I wish you a wonderful day/night/time/as you wish, and hope to meet you soon in the maze of the threads.
Hi Marcelina! Welcome to the EC forum! I think you might be gender fluid, just like me. I'm here, whenever you need someone to talk to. :icon_bigg
