Transgenders- How do you feel about your body?

I'm definitively a trying to ignore it person... It's a bit weird because looking in mirrors I sew a guy that unfortunately have some feminine feautres (face, waist, etc).
My dysphoria is mostly just social, and my main problem with my body is that even if I see it as male, others would never see me as passing as their first impression and that brings me panic and anxiety... ..So I try and ignore the fact about how others veiw my body.

 

At best I can almost forget about it and at worst it makes me nauseous and in a pretty worrisome state.
Generally I ignore it, not much I can do to change it right now.

 

Cause of two or three suicide attempts.
My voice really doesn't help, and the rule against hair longer than 3 inches is horrible.

 

Let's just say I get through my days through a thick layer of self-denial.