I don't really feel like a female, but I don't feel male. I would say I shift between the two. I don't want to talk about this to my parents because, I love make up and own 11 dresses and I know they won't take me seriously. I go back a forth being comfortable and uncomfortable with my body. I tried to hurt myself by binding too tight, I've only told one person that was my intention. I felt like it was the only way for my parents to take me seriously. I also got addicted. Since I cut my hair every time I look in the mirror I feel like my body and face don't match. I love to wear long wigs and when I do it's one of the few times I feel completely girly. Most of the time I don't feel connection to gender. I thought I was transgender for a while, but then I went through a girly phase and I'm confused again.
Nobody reeeally understands gender tbh. It's a spectrum just like sexuality, though. Where do you feel that you fall on the spectrum? Research Genderqeer and Non-binary, maybe?
There's agender, which could be having no gender identity or having a neutral one. There's also genderfluid, where your gender changes over time. Look into non-binary genders. Also, the clothes you wear and the things you like don't define your gender.