What are you thinking?

(Hurray, first post on EC. Nice to meet you all. X3)

Recently: Kind of sad, like... mournful, almost. Sleep has been weird too, I've been up later than usual... (coming from someone who is already a night-owl in the first place)

Today: Went to my friend's house earlier today and had a fun time. We cosplayed Death Note characters (she was Light and I was L) and we took turns going on Grand Theft Auto rampages for most of the time. XD

Future: As of now I am looking forward to three things this year. I'll be going to MisCon (yay second con), then visiting my father who I've never met before in person and only recently got in contact with, and then finally visiting my long-distance girlfriend in Canada.

Sexuality: I hate it when people assume I'm straight, but at the same time I don't want to come out right then about my sexual orientation knowing how people are. It kind of puts me in an awkward situation sometimes.

I guess that's about it for now.

Also I just want to say that my extreme social anxiety made it hard for me to decide if I even wanted to post this message, and I took forever just analyzing what I typed. It really sucks sometimes. But if you're reading this then I obviously did it... lol.

 

I came out to my my hair cut lady today. It was weird though. I couldn't say "I'm gay". I said "I'm not really interested in girls" instead.

Yay for coming out! Also...had a talk with my mom. It's so complicated lately.

 

Should I try to sign up for London Marathon 2017?

 

Woo! Movie Nighttt! :eusa_danc :lol:

 

Waah I want this cold to just die (literally speaking as, well, you'll get it if you've done that branch of Biology ._. ). I'm just a nose-runny mess, haha. Ugh...

 

Being stuck in the closet (probably permanently) can be such torture sometimes... ;_; >.> I swear I hate my family sometimes...

I wish I could say even something to that effect. Glad to hear you got it off your chest though, even if indirectly! ^_^

 

My ex boyfriend told me that he wanted to date his best friend if he was a girl. :lol:

 

Why do I not exist to these people?! . . . -__-

 

BAM. Here's the (almost finished) bike I've been working on for a month. She's still not reassembled, but the paint work is done.

 

I hate writing letters of application.

 

Ughhhh. Same.

 

"We're going to win the league, We're going to win the league, And now your gonna believe us"

West Brom fan tomorrow for the day.

 

Looks good I've started repairing my bike last week and I also want to repaint it but I can't decide between all these colours

 

I think I'll just use the same one that I've already given to another company.

 

DO IT. You guys are so close.

Thanks. She looks even better fully assembled.



For me, the color choice was easy. She was always going to be black and yellow.

 

NO! WHY! You can't... You can't just end a series like that... The romance was starting to surface at last between the two couples... GYAH!!! So frustrating. Just another episode would have been enough... just one more... why...

 

So on Tumblr, I find this person and it's like "read my about before you follow, and please introduce yourself."

But then I can't message them. Like wtf.

 

This afternoon I refrained from talking with two good friends about why I was suddenly entering a sad/depressed state because when they happen, it's almost always a complicated mess of emotions. I would've loved to talk about it, but instead just tried to bury everything I was feeling; only acknowledging that I wasn't well.

Why do I piss on these moments...

 

I need to keep busy to keep my sanity, so I guess I need to start taking asap

 

I got called SJW today on reddit. Unfortunately on Tumblr I get called racist, misogynistic shitlord and accused of cyber-rape, so I guess I just don't fit in anywhere... except hear, cause you're all really nice