What are you thinking?

I'm literally so stupid for staying here. anyway, just talked to the girl again for the first time In 11 days. She is so stupid for talking to me. Why after 11 days. She did sound pissed when I said I was going to sleep after like 50 minutes.

They gave back my phone. I don't know if it's permanent or not.

So much easier to type without the sign in to iCloud pop up.

 

I guess I'm not the type of person to be missed, & it kind of hurts.

 

What the hell? There are birds outside singing at one in the morning...

 

What song are they singing? :lol:

 

Damn it, why does every single football-related site I'm on keep finding ways to remind me about the Liverpool match?

No, I do not want to remember the Liverpool match. No, I do not want to see highlights of the match. No, I do not want to see opposing fan reactions to that damn match. When all we needed was a draw, we lost that match in stoppage time, despite being up 3-1 half an hour earlier. Do I give a damn what fans of the other side thought about it? You know what my reaction to that match was? I was an absolute wreck for two days; wishing I could just beat my head into the wall to forget it. I didn't sleep that night; my mind just kept replaying what happened in my head over and over and over again. It was easily one of my top three worst experiences as a BVB fan, if not the worst, just because of the nature of the loss.

And yet every single damn football site is still waxing poetic about it. Every other video YouTube recommends is a highlight video. No. Piss off.

 

I just might have to write my Congressman and tell him he should introduce a bill to shut down the Internet lottery sites that states have been creating the last few years.

 

Well I only have 3 weeks to finish 26 assignments and still no motivation to do them.

 

Damn, and I thought I had a lot to do with how many is it now? I think it's gone back up to four now.

 

I somehow managed to convince a TSA agent that I was a cis male with a hormone disorder. My packer apparently gets flagged like a real penis would if I was scanned as "female".

 

Meeting a really cute guy in a club
Talk to and dance with him
Be stupid and let him go away

Ugh

 

My therapist put me on antidepressants today.
So far nothing but side effects.

 

I'm thinking about something postie atm moment with me moving to a new home and having positive vibes. And thinking about how to make my new job better by not repeating the same mistakes.

 

Wow, three in the afternoon and I'm already waiting for another episode? This is just great. Can I go a day without feeling needlessly depressed for a change? Time to cry into some oreos and waste my time watching gaming videos until I go numb.

 

Welp, my sister told me that I should do drag because I would be a great boy, so I thought that maybe I should come out to her, then she showed me somebody on the internet and said, "This is my friend, she wanted me to use they'them pronouns, she's cool.". -_-

 

I thought I'd have one of those days where I just play video games all day...

*tries playing any video game I have* Nope, bored... *exits games after playing for less than a minute*

 

Just 3 more weeks...

 

Holy balls, it's almost five and all I can think about is food and it's driving me nuts. I really hope this is just my thyroid being fussy and nothing too major. Nothing says second puberty like wanting to go to Mcdonalds and getting over emotional watching cat videos.

 

My mom had the same thing happen a day or two ago :lol:

 

Rare Maned Lionesses Explained | National Geographic (blogs)

Wait, what's this I'm hearing about female lions with manes?

 

Someone thought I was a girl in drivers ed. Yay.