Hi im new here and im not sure if there is anywhere else I can talk about this. I am extremely confused and scared about my gender, basically I find myself imaging my future and in the future I see myself as a boy (I was assigned female at birth). Just the thought me using male pronouns makes me happy and even when I was little I did more "boy" stuff and acted like a boy, even now I sometimes forget I go by female and just saying I am female and being in this body feels wrong. At the same time I am scared I am making all this up? What if I change my mind in a few years? I just don't know what to do and where to start, my mom also reminds me that im a girl and god made me a girl so that might be why I think I am just making this up im not sure. Any advice for a confused teen? <3
If you feel like a boy, you are a boy. It's as simple as that. You say saying you are female feels wrong, so I'd say you are a guy. I personally don't believe in God, so I don't think God made you a girl so you could be a girl. You are you. If you are a boy, that's who you are. Nothing can change that (*hug*)
I've had the same fear about the future, like thinking that "what if in a few years I don't feel the same way?". But that feeling of wanting to present masculine, I have now realized, has been something I've had with me since childhood. I've changed a lot from high school to college and then even more after college. But one thing that stayed consistent was this inner feeling of not being the girl inside that I look like on the outside. I think I'm slowly realizing that this is a bigger deal than I let it be, always pushing it down and trying to ignore it.
I am glad someone else understands! It has been something that I have pushed to the back of my mind for a long time