I am trying to be more and more out, but even so, when I actually say the words, I get this cold feeling and my heart misses a beat. I was filling out an online form for applying to colleges and it asked me for the exact date of my parents' divorce. I asked my mom about it. When I said the word "divorce", I got that same weird cold feeling that I get when coming out to people. It surprised me. Have you guys ever experienced something like this?
I feel my stomach drop, and my voice goes up because I start to feel like I'm losing air. I think for me it's because I'm still not comfortable with my sexuality, so talking about it makes me anxious and uncomfortable. How do you feel about being gay, yourself?
Even tho I have only recently accepted I am gay, I do not get that feeling when I have said it to other humans. Building up to the moment is like a roller coaster tho! I feel great about being gay, btw. Gay is who I always was and will be!
Yes that shaking feeling is what I had for the first little bit. It went away after I got used to the fact that people knew, and didn't care.
I would only get that shaky feeling if I say it to straight males. Saying it to other Gay men, or females(sraight or lesbian) is easy.
Sometimes when I'm alone in the bush I say I'm gay out loud. It has it's therapeutic values and makes it a but easier to say
I hate the word 'gay', so it'd feel all kinds of weird saying it anyways. Hell, I can't even say lgbt. I seriously envy those who can say it without a care in the world or it causing harm.
Woah I thought I was the only one. I say it a million times a day in my head, but when I say it aloud... It totally freaks me out
It's that feeling like you're about to cry. Your throat gets dry and you just want to crouch in a corner. Saying those words to my parents was just emotionally exhausting.
The build up right before and then saying it I usually go through that butterflies in feeling/shaking feeling. After a moment it fades, especially if there's acceptance from the other person.
I try to be comfortable with my sexuality, but I think that I am still dealing with some internalized homophobia. I can't seem to get rid of the feeling in the back of my mind that it is something that is wrong with me.
I still couldn't say "I'm gay" to myself in front of the mirror a few months ago (that was when I thought I was a cis girl and quite possibly a lesbian). It's hard especially when you've internalized a lot of negativity in the past, but there is really nothing wrong with it. It's coming to terms with that and letting yourself know that there is nothing wrong with you that can be quite a long process.
I used to barely be able to say it too. I'd get all nervous, and my voice would shake. It felt like saying a swear word or something. Then, as I grew to accept myself as into girls (called myself gay, not a fan of lesbian) it became easier to do. Now I have no trouble saying it at all. We'll see how gender identity terms go...
You're feeling a chemical reaction that is based on a "fight or flight" response. You have so much emotion attached to those two little words that your body believes it's in danger... even if it's just for a second.
Yes, I know that feeling quite well, but it's usually when I tell people about my object sexuality instead of my being bi. I'm quite comfortable telling people about my bisexuality, but I did feel that "shivering feeling" when I came out to my new social worker that I was OS last Wednesday. IT's not a comfortable feeling, I must say. I still feel it whenever I refer to my doll to people I'm out to, even my own parents.
