I'm honestly....kind of depressed. I'm really not sure why. I enjoy gender neutral activities- like going to the park and being around nature. But maybe...I'm missing a piece of the picture. Maybe I really am far more femme than I realize. I don't know why...I just can't admit this to anyone, I'm too damn terrified! Even my male self rejects my female self. So the female self is hidden, and upset that it cannot express itself. I don't know what more there is to say :/.
Try doing things out of your comfort zone slowly, this way you're expressing her and still enjoying yourself. Like I said just take it slow, so your male self can get used it haha.