Hello! I have known that I like girls for a very very long time. I guess, I had my first crush on a girl when I was 12. I wished it away. Then I fell in love with my best friend at 16. I ignored it. Then, I met a wonderful girl. She was gay, too, and she made me come out of my shell. Unfortunately, she didn't have the patience to wait around for me coming to terms with being a lesbian, so she moved on. And I moved back into the closet of my self. I again denied being a lesbian. I never had a boyfriend, I went on dates with two boys but I couldn't even stand kissing them. And still I didn't get it. Human capacity for repressing feelings and our true selves is astonishing. I hope that I can gain some confidence here, so that I can accept and love myself as I am. And love girls, because that IS my cup of tea. Never liked any guy.
Hello, welcome to EC. You have no idea how well repressed this kind of feelings can be (or maybe you have), anyway, I hope you can gain confidence to express your feelings. (I am trying to do that too so...)
