Sexuality was never a big deal for me. It was more or less realizing, I like men and women, okay. Moving on... Everything else, well, I now know why my feelings for women were deeper. That was dysphoria. I know, very boring, right? Lol.
Nope I was "straight" all my life until 8th and 9th grade when I got curious. I was at a cross road to choose between men or women I chose women I was indenial that I still had a attraction to men. And then a lot of confusion later here I am
I knew I was different when I learned about the concept of being with the same sex. I thought it was more appealing than being with a man. I didn't think it was a big deal, so I didn't mention it.
Yes and no. I never really had a concept of right and wrong as far as clothes and sexuality went. The things I saw, flew over my head until I became older and started to realize a real difference. I would say.. I was about 10 or 11 when I began having genuine thoughts about wanting to be a boy. I never addressed it to my parents, I would just have these sneaky little things that they didn't see, like when I used to put on puppet shows and I named it "Kohl and Puppets". I embraced the fact that people would often confuse me for a boy. I enjoyed it, though it was short lived because not long after I got out of HS, people started calling me by the female pronouns.
i always knew i liked liked guys a bit but i didn't think anything off it before year7 when i had my first guy crush. after that i automatically thought i was gay. after many years of confusion i eventually came to a solid conclusion about 6 months ago that im bi no wait pan or gay;shit i thought i had it all figured out XD
I have one clear memory of preferring to see myself as a girl rather than a boy from about age 4, but that was an isolated incident. Once I hit age 13 and started having sexual fantasies of myself as the opposite sex I became a bit more cognizant that not everything was so straight and narrow for me.
In retrospect there were signs. I had, what I would call, crushes on boys at school as far back as second or third grade (that's all I can remember). I did have crushes on girls too though. However, those crushes never developed into anything sexual. I think the fact that I didn't really recognize I was gay until I was older is because I'd always been told I would end up getting married to a woman. I thinks that's the only reason I ever liked girls. I didn't see my crushes on boys as crushes -- I just wanted to be their "best friend," but I, naively as a child, wanted to marry the girls I had crushes on.
Considering I got wood with both sorts of centerfolds when I approached puberty, there were definitely some signs. Got wood is a great term I learned from a friend of my childhood friend who was rearranging his garage while visiting him because he was bored and in transition, and I was in the garage with him when I was also a guest. There was a lot of sexual tension but nothing happened. Too bad. The guy moved to Phoenix and my friend lost track of him.
Yes. I always liked girls and stared at them and I loved drawing nice girls. But I thought it was OK and everybody does the same. I started worry and think there is sth wrong with me, when I went to high school and I hadn't felt love. I didn't have a crush. I didn't know boys in the school at all (now I know because I didn't care about them). So I felt like an alien when I was with girls and I had few friends, mostly boys. I didn't realize that I had crushes, but girls, I was in love with a nice girl and I knew every pretty girl in the shcool. I was about 17 when I had to admit it that I'm not straight. I wanted to be normal but this life is more challenging - I don't care. I'm seeking my place in the world, and now I started to feel that I can accept myself.
Pretty much. I was about 4 or 5, and my sister and I were sleeping together...... NOT THAT KIND OF SLEEPING! We're just sleeping! Okay, anyway, she was probably asleep already and I was still wide awake. I remember talking to an imaginary fairy about who's hotter without a shirt: Jackie Chan or Jet Li (I admire both of their work as martial artists). And I was kinda debating with this imaginary fairy and finally came to a conclusion that Jackie Chan IS hotter without a shirt. The following morning, my sister told my mom I was sleep talking and ranting about the action films that I watched so often. Little did she know, I was already objectifying the guys! Sorry to the two masters, can't help that I'm gay.
I have always been different. When I was little, though, I had never heard of sexuality or gender identity. I just thought that there was something wrong with me.
Gender identity: never had trouble with identifying as a man. Sexual orientation: I suspected around 5th grade I liked guys. There was this one kid who I liked to get close to when we were in line after recess and I liked the way his hair smelled. I didn't have an "aha" moment; I just slowly came to realize I really liked guys and did my best to hide it.
I was about 6 when I realised I was gay. Though back then I had no word for it or what the feelings meant. I just knew I felt for boys how the boys felt for the girls....Oh and I always wish that the prince would find his own prince and not always a princess...Come on Disney! Give us a gay prince! But when I was 11 certain things happened and I began to repress my sexuality.
In regards to gender identity, I think it started when I was very young. My earliest memory begins at about 4. I never really saw myself as either female or male, the clothes I wore didn't define me, when I referred to myself as a 'girl' - it was just a role to be filled and the pronouns people used didn't really mean anything - I was just me. With my sexual identity, I remember appreciating the beauty of people around me when I was a kid and growing up but I haven't felt sexual attraction before. And even when I had my first real crush at 13, the only thing I wanted to do with him was hold his hand because I thought he was cute. *facepalms lol*
I think it was as early as five years old. I had what felt like crushes on male cartoon characters (Ash from Pokemon, Carlos from Magic School Bus and heck even Arthur to name a few lool). And I used to feel a sort of excitement when I saw some men and boys my age wearing shorts. Something about a man's legs were just so attractive to me and I didn't see female legs the same way. Not to mention, I liked to play with barbies, although I did like to play with cars, male action figures and blocks too.
I think my moment was probably about 13 (although I didn't think of it that way at the time). My Mum showed me Flashdance, which is one of her favourite films. I'd love to say it was the beautiful, graceful dancers (and it was to a certain extent) but I've got to admit it was the strip club scene that really had an effect on me that I hadn't had before! Around that time I also had what I realise in hindsight was a crush on a beautiful female teacher at my youth theatre.
I never really questioned until I was about 10/11 - I got curious and watched gay porn, got really turned on and things kind of began there.
