What are you thinking?

The fact that the clinic I'm going to in a couple days couldn't even change my name on their correspondence even though I gave them all my current info makes me really not want to go... Kind of makes me dysphoric...

 

I think I caught the flu. Why did it have to strike on the day before an important test?

 

I dyed my hair pink again yesterday. Yay. It makes me so happy to see it back to how I feel it should be.

 

I'm lying here trying to sleep and I realize that my whole body is tense. I'm a neurotic wreck, I'm literally that anxious that I find myself waking up from half sleep with my body all tense. It's killing me to be this way (#*~*)

 

Awww, sweetie

 

I have 30,000 words in my book now! And I'm so excited. Shit's happening in my story. We're hitting a climax, people!

 

Me and a big bottle of Jäger. I'm way more blitzed than I intended on being tonight. Holy balls.

Of course, I also worked my big German ass off this weekend and now I feel like I got hit by a truck, so I think I am more than entitled to be blitzed, but holy hell, I can barely see the keyboard straight. I don't think I've been this smashed since the Revierderby, and before that... no idea.

Guess I'm not working on my story anymore tonight. Oops. Take it from me, the whole "write drunk, edit sober" thing is BS. I can hardly type straight. This stupid post is taking me five minutes to write.

Also, rapping in German is harder when drunk. Even for me. Especially while also trying to type. SCHEISSE.

 

So, this is real shit somebody posted on ihateseattle.com:

"In the top five of my list of people I hate in Seattle are the lesbians, gays, bisexuals and trannys."












Ya...

I'm soo moving to Seattle now :3 :3

 

Have to drive to Chicago for work related training this week. I HATE traffic and parking downtown. :dead:

 

It's nights like these when I really wish I could just talk to someone who could literally feel evertyhing I feel right now. It'd make life a bit less...despairing.

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It's nights like these when I really wish I could just talk to someone who could literally feel evertyhing I feel right now. It'd make life a bit less...despairing

 

Dinner tonight was a ham glazed with peach-bourbon-brown sugar. Not sure if it's the epitome of southern food, or a heart-attack-inducing meal :lol:. Also, the slice of pecan pie did not help with the latter.

 

I was going to wash my work clothes last night, but I fell asleep - so I've gotten up early this morning to get them washed before I go to work in about 4 hours.

I'm a little pissed off with myself.

Oh, and I recently bought a diary for 2016 in a desperate attempt to remain organised. Literally as soon as I make an appointment for something I will forget the time about 30 seconds later.

Meh, I might go for a run and then get a shower.

 

Does anyone got any spoons to offer, because I'm out of them and I feel dead and empty all over again.

 

Chronic illness can go suck a ten-foot spiky dick.

 

A-fucking-men to that.

 

This is literally me.

 

Same. Today was my third-last day of class and trying to speak in class has left me a silent wreck with a very sore throat.

Ah well, at least only two of my exams are oral. :rolle:

 

Argh!!!!! -.-


Oh well, at least that's one less way to procrastinate...

 

I think the concept of "gay for pay" is both laughable and pathetic.

 

I had a strange dream last night about my straight friend from high school. It was so weird because I was at an LGBT concert and my friend randomly came and kissed me and it wasn't just a smooch or anything but his tongue was all over my mouth!

I just think it's funny because he's a conservative christian and we rarely see each other, lol.