What are you thinking?

It's a nice warm day for some football, a far cry from the gray and rain from earlier in the week. If you like defense, this is a good one to watch. I'm fairly optimistic Michigan's going to take care of Northwestern, but this will be a good one either way.

 

I'd like to be watching Texas try and take down Oklahoma, but my damn ABC station is down for some reason...


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Oh sure, they finally get it up and the game is pretty much over.

 

So fucking hungry, but I don't have the spoons to get up to make it and then clean all the dishes and pots that are filling our sink up. Blah.

Seriously, can someone run my ass to the store so I can bury my face in ice cream and pre-cooked chicken sandwiches? That would be great.

 

Exactly. That's what I hate the most. When you spend hours studying some story by a guy who thinks he's written the next "Finnegan's Wake", trying to figure out what it all means and then you discover it's just an account of some guy getting out of bed, making himself a cup of tea, and thinking about his girlfriend or something. I'm not a huge Ernest Hemingway fan but I think Hemingway had the right idea when it came to only saying what you need to say and keeping it direct and simple.

 

Can someone please enlighten me on how one can feel "walrusy"? XD

 

Sometimes I am sad.

Sometimes I am content.

I can't remember a time when I was truly happy.

 

Today has been fairly good... Now for some stream of consciousness. Yush!

 

I want to download Metal Gear Solid V, but alas the internet I am using offers me a whopping 150 kilabytes per second download speed at its best. :c

 

Currently I am thinking about bed.

So here it goes:
I am thinking about how long I am staying awake on this forum while I should be in bed.Also I am thinking about my sleep in tomorrow and how much I hate sundays!

 

I don't think I've ever been this angry at the referees. As I've said before, the NCAA can take its targeting rule and shove it. That asshole in the white hat can kiss my ass!

 

Does any one else ever just want to scream their lungs out in frustration? Sometimes I just want to scream as loud as I can until my vocal cords start bleeding.

 

Mmm, halloween cupcakes

Spoiler

 

You can lead a horse to water, but you can't make them drink. I gave fair warning. Time to sit on the sidelines and watch the repercussions of this.

 

Haha I'm Irish. When Shane Long put the ball past Neuer I roared like we had won the World Cup

 

That doesn't sound good...hope everything is alright!(*hug*)

 

Oh no. I won't be the one suffering the repercussions. I was only the one that advised against it. People have to make their own mistakes.

In other news, Nyle DiMarco...

 

I think I have a personality disorder.

 

Another boring night. Yay....

 

I just want to fade away from existence right about now...

My crush has just scored what seems like a new relationship so now I'm out of luck on that and I have no answers from all my questioning before about various things.

It's not even about 'anything more'(which was my feelings talking), because Idgaf about relationships(have never even dated before); it's just the principle that this whole thing was near the one thing to make me feel not so...kicked out of the lgbt community. Just talking I would forget what a closeted mess I am.

Both offline and online the more 'local'(and surrounding areas) lgbt folk have done nothing but ostracize or, in a couple of cases, fetishize me.

I don't even know why I bother with this hypocritical bullshit of a community sometimes. Woohoo...I'm back to being a sad, lonely, ugly fuck...

It sucks that I don't even have a shoulder about now because I'm trying to fight the tears back so much...being closeted, I have nobody to express these feelings to.

Note to self: please don't ---> :tears:

 

Saving money is so hard, but I think I'm getting better about separating want from need and controlling myself. Haven't made an impulse buy in nine days.