What are you thinking?

Today the daily grind just seems more grinding than usual. Ex-gf being an absolute hateful ass, working when I wish I was with my kids, have had 6 cigs in 4 days (trying to quit), how am I not completely insane yet?

 

It sure is If I'd stayed at home for at least few days longer,I would've probably gotten a nerve breakdown.
Thanks

 

Ah calculus, I haven't done that for years now... and I was reading an article for one of my classes and it had this integral... I was like uh oh I don't recall how to do you (sigh)

Wait cancel? (goes online to do some sleuthing)

... oh yeah apparently that is a thing. I loved the first season, but after that, what was love toned down to great interest because I wanted to see where they would go with the plot.

So I'm not heartbroken but I am miffed.

 

Yep I got it. Your week has been so much more interesting that you even forgot where i went. You asked after 2h of texting? Sry but on some days I'm so tired of asking and telling when the only thing you do is telling. Ok I told you how my vacation went without you asking and well that was the last thing...
What did I write before? Oh yea, I should lower my expectations or sth. You're egocentric, have you noticed? All you talk about is you and yourself trace everything back to yourself. And you talk without content... what's annoying me most. It wouldn't even make a difference if you haven't had said it.

 

No longer feel like I'm going to blow up. And came out to a close friend of mine. Now three people know. I've made progress today. (!)

 

Beginning to feel mediocre again, and not entirely sure why.

 

I just watched a sitcom on Youtube called Husbands. I enjoyed it! Was hoping to watch a fourth season, but there wasn't one available

At least the final episode was enjoyable. I wonder if they will do a fourth season =/

 

When you write your best line yet:

"My work here is done."



"The fans will love this one."



"Where are the paparazzi? I am ready for my close up!"




[But then it sets in that your work is most certainly not done because you have four hundred more pages to write. You don't even have fans because you write all of two sentences a day and will be senile before you get something on the shelves. And the paparazzi doesn't care because all you have to show for yourself are witty quotes that you can't even share with the world because it hasn't been copywritten and hardly anyone even knows that you are writing it anyway...]

 

Earlier on I found myself ideally located to overhear some of a Foo Fighters concert at a distance (which was still loud enough to hear because, you know, they play pretty loud) what a surprising and delightful treat for a Sunday evening.

 

I'd totally join it if I had a PlayStation Plus subscription. I'm restricted to only local multiplayer on my PS4 version of Minecraft, the only version I have. I don't feel like shilling out 20 more bucks just to play it on the computer.

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I've heard they're THE BEST (lol)

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It feels good to feel clean

 

I'm so bad.
In a good way.

 

I deeply regret forcing myself to be more social.

 

Gah! Even after saying I should get on here more often I'm not doing it... bah... Bad me!

 

You shouldn't.

To homework or to nap.

 

I get you on regrets being a waste of time! I just won't pretend that I don't regret it, if that makes sense. I think the lesson is that sometimes I need to build myself up to things.

My "burn out" reminds me of when I read about things related to trans stuff and sometimes even news stories. I think I can handle it, and then I get really angry or my heart feels like an exploding grenade.

 

I'm thinking about Wednesday and Thursday of this coming week. I'm excited for my first club fair, especially since I am a choir officer (even though I'm a freshman), on Wednesday. I'm also excited for another night of Dangerously Improv and hanging out in campus village with my favorite upperclassmen.