What are you thinking?

Responding purely to the title... I am thinking that certain people in my life, should at this moment actually engage their gray matter rather than their adrenal glands... But hey lol, I'll get over it.

 

I'm thinking... "Damn, I should get to bed soon before the sun gets back up" :lol:

 

Just got home from an awful day at work, only to find that my mom decorated my room with religious items. No point in taking them down because she'll give me another speech, which I really don't need.
In other news, people think I'm attractive and kind, yet no one has ever felt any romantic feelings for me.
Ok, thats not true; 3 of were girls, 1 of the guys has a mental/emotional problems that I simply cannot put up with (plus, he's too young and immature), and the other guy who atleast admires me just treats me like a child.
I'm so lonely that I've been reduced to betraying my morals by hooking up with a few guys (one of which I lost my virginity to, which is something that I regret greatly, to say the least- and yes, while many of you villanize virginity, i see it as something precious which should only be given to the right person, not some random person that could care less if you got run over by a car after leaving his house) and going on fruitless dates with people I mt online.
I may be young, but I dont want to spend my youth alone. I'm sad enough that all my friends are leaving for college, I feel like dying. I feel unloved and ignored, which is why I'm starting to become bitter and pissy. I can't bare it.

 

Probably cause of all the banned members

I can still hear their voices though, crying out for justice from the other side

 

Rather they were band members... :badgrin:

 

I miss Wall-E!! :tears:

But at least I still have all my other friends here. :icon_bigg

But Wall-E's gone!! :tears:

Eh, he'll be back someday. :icon_bigg

But maybe not!! :tears:

I'm so conflicted... :icon_sad:

But at least I'm eating popcorn right now, so that's good. And I'm spending time with the one I love! :love:

---------- Post added 9th Aug 2015 at 08:39 PM ----------

Why does my popcorn taste like pizza?

 

Create the world you want to live in.

 

I'm going to have a busy upcoming week...

I'm more or less daydreaming as usual though. I can never seem to get my head out of the clouds which is very inconvenient sometimes...

 

I can't believe, for the past two weeks, I've been writing, for the local paper, my opinions and observations on online gaming culture (via Destiny) -- and getting paid for it.

Life can be pretty awesome, sometimes. It just goes to show, you have to be willing to make or take an opportunity.

 

What?! Wallflower got banned?! That's sad, I wonder why? :eek:
Anyways, it has been oddly quiet lately around here.

 

That's freaking awesome. And if you ever wanted to do more writing, it's a great foundation as far as building a portfolio. Loads of online gaming sites are hungry for writers.

I'm currently at Michael's, bored out of my skull. Partner has to stop and look at everything... Ugh.

 

My brother asked me how old you had to be to get married... who does he want to marry...

He also thinks that the guy who tried to marry a lawnmower to get on tv could have actually done so...

America has a very low average IQ.

 

I feel like I should have gotten something from the grocery store while I was there but I don't know what it was...

 

I think I shouldn't have ordered that milk shake with dinner.

 

I really need a sorts bra, and alot of other things. Waiting for a paycheck is so hard. :/

 

I'm thinking about writing my current book on abuse/kidnapping and also someone who I shouldnt be thinking about

 

I thought I am the only one! Im still thinking on how to make other EC member active, making EC to be more alive again like in the past months... I miss the "Noisy EC" days where many members join are very active in the forums.
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This day aint going well. UGH, I hope things will go better tomorrow. PLEASE.

 

As much as I hate to admit it, my crush doesn't deserve to have to be aware of the existence of the closeted mess that is me. ;_;

 

We're gonna be at the store all night... Ugh. Great. He's got to catch up with old friends. Funny how I don't even get introduced or mentioned...