a little because i wish i liked my gender like a normal person, but everyone is different so whatever
I wouldn't call it shame as much as fear at being pigeonholed into stereotypes and, more importantly, being rejected by conservative family and friends.
I put A little. I generally think I'm pretty comfortable with who I am and wasn't really raised with any blatant homophobia but I notice some heteronormativity creep up in my opinions sometimes which I think is still an issue sometimes. Considering the society we live in it's not that bad though.
It usually floats around with different stuff(typically with attraction), but lately I've felt a bit more and more in regards to being on the ace spectrum. It's like no matter where I turn, whether it be the hetero or lgbt world, I'm being told that there is something (crazy) wrong with me.
I don't really like the behaviour of some butch lesbians because they can be so gross. So, I was ashamed of being gay myself. But now I have understood that a person can be straight and gross or gay and gross. Furthermore, being refined doesn't make me less manly.
I voted 'a lot' - although I am speaking here of the past. I used to have A LOT of shame. I had this for years - more than a decade. Not anymore though, and in large part to EC
You know, I asked myself that question hundreds of times but I could never find an answer. On one hand, I have always known that I was gay and I have never tried to deny it to myself. On the other hand, I haven't told a single soul in my life that I am gay because I am from Saudi Arabia and being gay is completely unacceptable. But I have never pretended to be straight either, In other words, I follow the "don't ask don't tell" rule, so what does that make me?!
