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Straight/ bi/ lesbian or just a fear of being a lesbian?

Discussion in 'Sexual Orientation' started by popcorn, Feb 18, 2015.

  1. popcorn

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    So recently I was diagnosed with social phobia... Brought on by an sickness that lasted for a number of years. I'm better now but still feel traumatized by it.

    Here are my reasons why I think I'm straight:

    I'm attracted to men
    Fantasies about men only
    Get turned on by them
    Try to position myself in places where I might get chatted up
    Excited about bring with them/ possibility of relationship
    Get Butterflies when I see those that I like
    Enjoy men's company more than women's- even for just friendship
    Have always had crushes on men- never on women


    Reasons why I might not be straight:

    Other ppl think that I'm gay.... this upsets me because I believe I'm not.. Apparently it's the way I look at women... But bare in mind I do have social phobia... And struggle with eye contact
    I get turned on when I'm with women. its like- i fear the event happening, i think about it and then i do actually get turned on... almost like a panic attack...

    Other bits of info:
    I have watched lots of porn- whole I was sick
    Fear of sex for some time- fear its going to be painful, fear that ill be used and thrown away
     
  2. MeganMarie

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    I do not know but from what you described your straight.
    Just because you may look at another female for a wide range of reasons does not make you gay, however if you look at one the way I do oh la la or something like that it would be different.
     
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    You might have a look at this:
    Am I Gay, Lesbian, Bisexual, or Transgender?

    There is sexual and romantic attraction... and some people say they need an emotional connection first...

    I'd say take your time... you might think about it, and simply getting open to the idea..
    you might have a look here:
    http://emptyclosets.com/forum/chit-...fo-you-got-ec-helped-you-accept-yourself.html


    Sex should not be painful if there is enough foreplay, and if there is no medical condition involved...
    well it might be possible some lube is necessary...

    concerning porn, you might think about stopping for a while...

    for more hints, with both sexes, you might have a look at this thread:
    http://emptyclosets.com/forum/anony...s-who-slept-guys-how-do-you-get-orgasm-4.html


    You might think about a counselor...
    and you might call here:
    SupportLine - Problems: Sexuality: Advice, support and information
    ->Agencies which provide information and support
    People there listen, support and give advice.


    (*hug*)
     
  4. popcorn

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    With everybody I think he/ she is attractive / unattractive as well as nice/ not nice...
     
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    Anyone else got any ideas ? Would appreciate it too..
     
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    Well principally its up to you to figure out...

    you could think a bit about it, and just try to meet some people, not overthinking...

    you seem to be sexually and romantically attracted to men...

    and sexually to women...

    this would make you bi... there is something like the kinsey scale, and you can look up tests for romantic attraction... don't take them too serious, just as something to think about...

    you could try to be a bit more open, and get used to the thought you might like women as well...

    just take the time you need, it has taken others some time as well...

    if you don't have too much phobia you could try some lgbt clubs... or have a look at a lgbt center, with events and activities... just to have a look at the atmosphere, and at people...
    and there might be counseling there...

    I'd say just take your time, and make this step by step...you could have a look at a few lgbt movies and see how it makes you feel...
    http://emptyclosets.com/forum/entertainment-media/142817-lets-discuss-lesbian-movies.html

    (*hug*)
     
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    Thank you jay for your reply.

    The Kinsey scale reckons I'm straight. Which makes me happy.

    I don't want to be open to the idea of being with women... At all....
     
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    You know your straight that is all that matters. What others think of you shouldn't. If someone looks good it's like magnets for our eyes doesn't mean you are bi or lesbian for looking. Wanting to touch, etc with a women would make you not straight. We have have best friend whom we love dearly yet the idea of kissing them eww. Even if lets say you are more than attracted to a female what's so bad about it? Fear of what others think? Grossed out about the thought. If you are grossed out then why keep thinking and doubting if you are R not? If u dear something yet constantly think about it maybe deep down there is somethin more, maybe others opinion if you made you doubt your sexuality. Addiction to porn, the only time I looked at porn when I was single. With a partner who you can communicate, sexual needs can be satisfied no need for porn. : )
     
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    You sound straight to me
     
  10. popcorn

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    Falling down, I felt VERY relieved when I read your post.

    Thank you also lilystar for your post. Very informative, made me think and confirmed for me my belief that I am straight.

    Anyone else with an opinion is still very welcome still.... :-D