I like crossdressing and presenting female from time to time. It has been a bit confusing. Last night suddenly became very anxious when I was thinking about transitioning. I still want to present as a female sometimes, not often. I had to analyze this thing before I could sleep and after I realized that it's actually crossdressing and not really being female or wanting to be one or live as one I was relieved. I realized this thing has been going on for a long time. It's like playing a role and sometimes I enjoy it. It's just a role. I am still a man in womens' clothes. I still always want to live as a man and have a male body. I get dysphoric when people expect me to really be a girl. This thing has been hard to understand. I am a man. I am not even very feminine. Then why do I have this urge to dress myself? For long I thought I was genderfluid but it didn't feel right. Now this seems more clear and I gave myself a permission to do it if I feel like it (lately I have been too dysphoric). I even gave.a name to this female role of mine. I am wondering how common this is amongst ftm's and mtf's. Do you do it?
You might have a look at the first pdf and the thread: http://emptyclosets.com/forum/gender-identity-expression/163350-question-about-crossdressing.html#3 just happened to look at your status... a Male (trans*) is a person transitioning from female to male (ftm).
I am a cross dresser. I am into the Japanese visual kei and gothic scenes where cross dressing is common even (and if anything, mostly) for straight men. I love wearing pretty clothes and makeup and doing my hair. However I see it as I kind of art form, just playing around with clothes and makeup and expressing myself extravagantly. I have worn everything from corsets to petticoats and heels. There are many others like me, there are even FTMs who preform as drag queens. ---------- Post added 8th Jan 2015 at 01:50 AM ---------- He is an FTM.
Yes!! I've always liked dressing up - and when I did, everything had to be perfect: headband, perfume, dress, shoes, makeup… not a hair out of place. When I dress up like that, I feel like someone else entirely: some, well, girl. Most of the time, I just throw on T-shirts and jeans and leave my hair uncombed. That's when I feel most natural - most like myself. When I doll up, I feel somehow lost - like I'm not in my own body. I look in the mirror, and see a pretty stranger. My mannerisms change, and become over-the-top feminine: clasped hands and mincing steps where I usually stride and throw manly shoulder punches. It's uncomfortable, but also fascinating. (Part of the reason I like doing it is because I may kind of have a bit of an, um, thing for doing drag, if you get my drift)
Yes, I am an ftm. That's why it has been so confusing. I don't know much about Japanese stuff but I have been thinking if I should go to some anime conventions just so I could dress up in some awesome costume. I also really like lolita fashion too. It fascinates me. It is a form of art really. I think I own more make-up than most women do although I rarely use it. There is a lot of crazy colours. I have wigs and corsets and crazy high heels. It would be fun to perform as a drag queen really. Some time ago I saw a document about a (cis)guy who worked as a DJ and a drag queen at the same time. He wears all kinds of crazy costumes. He called himself a drag freak. That looked really fun. I also feel like I become someone else. It's weird but fun from time to time if I can just return being me soon. If I feel like being stuck it gets horrifying.
Lolita is great, and I get to see it a lot since my fiancee loves all kinds of Japanese fashion. In fact she just became head journalist for a newly started Swedish Harajuku magazine. I've always loved the Japanese fashions and one of my absolute favorite artists--and favorite overall guitarist-- is Hizaki.
Think about it, a lot of people reported having met many people they could go along with well. (*hug*)
Ah, Hizaki is so beautiful ♡ I've also been into Japanese alternative fashions and music for a very long time now. I actually used to wear Gothic Lolita but now not really, just getting back into it. I still have my petticoat haha
He is beautiful yes. And one helluva guitarist. I actually have loose ties to him because I used to know a guy in a band whose dad was the branch head for the record label Hizaki was under. So when Versailles was playing for a convention here, my friend would hang with him. I probably could've too, but I wasn't attending the convention. Apparently two prostitutes was one of the terms for him playing here.
I don't do it often, but I definitely enjoy crossdressing sometimes. Actually just this evening I decided I wanted to try on some of my old dresses. I looked in the mirror and I saw a pretty boy in a dress, which was exactly what I wanted to be right then
I love dresses! And i like dress my self in them and see that pretty girl in the mirror, as you said, it's like art. But then to go out and try to be a girl and meet people who component me for my looks and sees me as a girl.... Ugh, It's so uncomfortable
