Small Victories

That is what makes me feel blessed to have good genes in terms of the hair on top of my head(bad in terms of facial hair). I worry enough about other stuff, like the hair on my chin that just won't go away, I don't want to have to worry about the hair on top of my head too.

 

I have pretty good genes too, so I know not why I worry. The only who's experienced it before late 60's that, I can think of, is my older brother. But he's a half brother, so I can't be sure how much of it was from his mom's genes and what was from my dad's. Both sides seem to be blessed with decent hair.

And luckily estrogen stops it in it's tracks! Can even recover it, though that's a slow process that takes years. I might look into hair replacement for my hairline, depending on how much recovery I see after a year or so.

 

I EMAILED A THERAPIST!!!!(One who specifically takes trans patients).

 

I think I do. The half assed emo hair isn't working for me anymore.

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(It's starting to look like Pete Wentz from Fall Out Boy if he needed a haircut)

 

Well done! (*hug*)

 

She already got back to me! And she used my preferred name!(I put it in the email). She's accepting new patients with gender questions/dysphoria. I'll be trying to make an appointment.

 

so did I... my heart is still pounding a bit and i'm shivering some.

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apparently setting up the first appointment is automatic.
so I now have my first session scheduled as far as I know and need to print and fill out the paperwork.

 

exciting, terrifying, thrilling, anxiety inducing.........TOTALLY worth it. (*hug*)

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me either hun, and less wanted on my head..... lol

I may have a hope though, there is an andro blocker that's used for hair loss but not for men, because it has a feminizing effect. works for me haha seeing a dermatologist in February to look at possibilities.

 

apparently the therapist i want to see is unavailable on the only day i have available next week T.T

 

I'm terrified. This will be the first person I'll introduce myself as Brooke to in person. (She's responded twice, not once has she used my legal name.:icon_bigg)

I don't know where the money is coming from, but this is something I REALLY need. I'm not doing well(I know it may not seem like it here, because I tend to be "bubbly" in my posts). My insurance doesn't kick in until the first of the year(Medicaid), so I may need to get creative....

And Sarah, I see no problems with feminization.

 

I was in my school musical and afterwards I was wandering around in a crop top and short shorts, a couple of weeks ago I wouldn't have even thought of doing that in front of my best friend let alone my whole year, a few teachers and some other odd people but I was actually comfortable with myself.

 

Today I'm going to do something that will 100% piss off my parents. Nothing like breaking into someplace, or anything close. No, I'm just going to cut my hair.

Screw my fussy parents.

 

Today is my birthday. I am 23 years old. A few months ago, I didn't want to get to 23. Today I'm relatively excited. Win.

 

Happy birthday!

My victory today, i feel pretty happy about the way my body feels now, and boobies.. well they start to develop a bit

 

Found out I get to start T in a year if I keep my mental health in check

 

Yay boobies!!!!!

I'm off work for the weekend(I never get those off!), so I won't need to talk as much, and I won't get mis-gendered as much. I had a hard couple days so the rest will be nice.:icon_bigg

 

I bought a new coat as a discount store - originally from Topshop, down to £9. I'd call that a victory

 

And on a rather more important note... I went out today presenting as a woman, for the first time on my own. I just had a walk around town, stopped in at a quiet pub for a drink, had a little chat with the bartender. It was very mundane, but also the most validating experience of my life.

 

While I was asleep, my partner got a call saying the ACLU found a lawyer that's willing to work with us for free to get our papers changed. Yes!!!