Small Victories

I was dressed as Loki yesterday and my friends said that I looked like a guy. I was binding all day and I felt incredible - still not brave enough to go into the men's bathroom though. I also "married" my friend and she was cold so we cuddled to keep warm for ages and I really felt like her boyfriend.

 

I just noticed I read all my posts in a female voice. A very generic one, but female non the less.

 

i'am 5-9 without heels and i wear up to a 4 inch heel. i get away with it no prob

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I actually still wish I was 5'9" or a bit taller. I've always admired taller girls, between my height and about 5'10/11". One I've the reasons I love T-Swift so much!

And I can't imagine ever wearing more than a 4" heel, that seems terribly impractical and uncomfortable.

 

sometimes, but they look soo cute with certain outfits

 

I'm sure I'll end up buying one pair eventually. lol

 

I told my doctor about my hives on my fourth shot and she said it probably wasn't the testosterone and gave me a new prescription for the same stuff, plus two refills. Not only that, but I got smaller needles this time, and I downloaded this prescription discount app and paid only $17 instead of last month's $60!

So I did my shot this morning and have had no reaction so far! And my voice seems to have practically dropped into the alto range already after listening to voice clips.

 

dressing more girl everyday. just cant seem to go one day without a bra and forms now. so again today, top jeans, and heels, with fall jacket.
nothing feels better

 

I'm sharing our spare room with my granny which has an en suite and she was out this evening so I wandered round shirtless for a bit. I never realised that's something that I wanted to do until I did it.

 

Finally got my driving licence back from the DVLA, all the paperwork went through fine, and I realised that I've got nothing in my wallet with my old name on it now. It's the small things that keep you going.

 

Stole my mom's skirt! *evil laughter*

 

I tried to apply for insurance on healthcare.gov, and they told me they can't let me because I MAY be eligible for Medicaide! Medicaide(in PA) covers any part of transition deemed medically necessary by WPATH standards!

I'm looking for a therapist already. I won't be able to do anything until next fall anyway, when I move a few hours away for school(if all goes according to plan). That's enough time to get written off/make a final decision on whether or not it's right for me.

Okay, so possible HUGE victory....

 

Spending time with people I care about. I've been balancing this a lot better recently. Plus I am on new pills that make me really happy but they do have some side effects.

 

Body related dysphoria seems very light today. Still social dysphoria, but not terribly bad. I still feel the disconnect with being male in general, but I don't expect that to go away until I'm not.

In other words, I'm having a pretty damn good day.

 

Outed myself to nearly all my friends this moth, it went awesome and they are all trying to use my preferred pronouns and name now(!)

 

I passed today

 

I'm glad the hives weren't from the T and also about the voice!

My thing is today a friend told me she always loved how I always pulled off "alternative girl 90s style" and it really made my day. Also I found some old pics of me from about 10 years ago and I have to say I was cute as hell.

 

so i had an evening alone last night, and i did my makeup for the first time, just foundation, eye liner, and lip stick. i really need a concealer for my shadow. but i dont think i looked totally bad...... in fact nice, not passable but i felt... right.

BTW i had a wig and proper clothes on, top, skirt, forms, shoes etc.:icon_bigg

 

I'm thinking of buying some makeup off Amazon....