I've been questioning my sexuality for years and I'm still not sure about which label I should use to describe it. Since my childhood, I thought of myself as straight until I ended up by having a crush on a girl and that's when I began to question my sexual orientation... I already thought about calling myself lesbian, but then I wonder if I'm not really attracted to girls at all and if I am not repressing my feelings for the opposite sex for some reason. I never had any experience with anyone and the idea of me having a relationship with a man makes me feel sad for some reason. I actually wouldn't mind staying with a girl, but it's not like I'm looking for one, it's more like... I could die alone and not feel bad for spending the rest of my life without a partner, but if I had a girlfriend then good. I just can't understand why I feel so depressed when I think of myself having a boyfriend and I fear that I might be attracted to men. What makes me feel worse is the thought that I might not even like girls at all and I am completely straight. What is that supposed to mean? That I am lesbian or a repressed bi/straight person?
And I probably won't be able to say anything that could prove it... Just a boy that I thought that was cute once and wanted to get to know him better, but that's it.
Well, if the idea of having a boyfriend makes you sad and you wouldn't mind having a girlfriend, I'd say you were a lesbian. Hope this helps.
I can relate to this. The idea of having a boyfriend makes me sad. I often notice attractive guys and I get scared that I'm attracted to them. I want a girlfriend, but I'm scared that I'm asexual or just some crazy straight girl.
