What are you thinking?

Hopped on the internet and immediately proceeded to get sidetracked from my original intentions by EC for about an hour.

 

Is this dysphoria? Is it enough to be considered dysphoria? I don't think it is, but it could be...

 

Called my mom to tell her I have an interview with Google this week and all she does complain about her life. Thanks for shitting on accomplishment mom

 

Congratulations on your interview, we care, even if your mum doesn't.

 

This browns game is insane... there have been so many unheard of calls made. There have been multiple challenges, ejected players and blocked punts.

 

If tomorrow I find the two other f*ck*rs in the office, I won't be able to stop the laughter... I think they call it 'schadenfreude' or something like that. But that won't happen, I know... I'll be there on my own listening to bull.
And they thought I had no idea about it, those fools... Nature's mistake is now ruling on my favour : How easy is to play dumb being female, little and sweet looking...

Rant about work over... Sorry, but I needed to let it out of my chest before I exploded... You invest so much, and you only get crap in return...

 

THEY WON! THE BROWNS ACTUALLY WON A GAME! IT'S A MIRACLE!

That is all.

Now I need to write my paper.

 

My very first endocrinologist appointment is tomorrow. I've been on hormones for a couple years now by my family doctor but I'm still worried.

 

Oh Kingdom of Madness, you've got me undone
Oh Kingdom of Madness, you've really begun
Oh Kingdom of Madness, you've got me on the run

Yup, listening to some magnum

 

I need to drink more... my alcohol tolerance is shit.

 

Or... you could not drink and avoid shooting unnecessary chemicals into your head? Crazy idea, but I hear it works.

 

Consider yourself lucky - it's a lot less expensive that way. :lol:

 

hate everything, what kind of jackass professor makes it MANDATORY to exchange contact information with students in the first place now i fucking ruined my good mood all yesterday and stressed out and didnt get ANYTHING done so now i'm bombing another one of my classes that i needed to work on shit for last night and i am in an awful mood today and I dont even want to go to their class ever again why the FUCK would they EVER think that was a good safe idea, fuck this gay life

 

That sounds boring. Anyway, my consumption is far below normal. I've only gotten drunk twice in the last year, and I've barely drunk anything apart from those times.

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I know, but being more drunk that others makes me feel vulnerable, and I don't like that.

 

(*hug*)

 

Fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck.

That is all.

 

Spoiler

I'm so depressed. I have never accomplished anything in my life and I wish that I have been more harder on myself but it sucks that I have AvPD. I have been waking up in the middle of the night for no reason at all but everytime I do I automatically think of my ex-boyfriend and how I should have been a better guy for him since I took everything for granted. I always thought I would never need friends but I just honestly need someone who can support me emotionally. I'm supposed to come out to my mum this week and I just can't not because I don't have the strength to tell her but because I don't think she can handle any of it. I'm getting a lot of suicidal thoughts lately which scares me because I may not think about it twice of doing it.

 

I need... something. Not sure what.

 

Spoiler

How about a giant picture of high definition bread?

 

Blowing something out of proportions does not make it "high def".

I think i should go to bed, have become dangerously sleepy and thus, cynical to still be hanging around here.