Hello! Thank you for reading this post. This is my first post, which puts forward the question: 'Am I Bisexual?' It is definitely one of reasons I came here in the first place. Some facts about me: In Secondary school right now. I always had a hard background, which I have struggled through. If anything, I have lacked parental love. I do know for a fact I like girls, but even that took me a while after puberty to recognise. I have had a hatred towards my mom because she is always so mean to everyone (me included), that I have sworn to never fall in love when I become an adult. I saw it as being very strong. I have no social contact whatsoever with girls. This is my 3rd year in a boarding school, during which, I would say I have grown up a lot. I have been able to confide with some roomates, as we change rooms a lot. The problem is, I am not sure whether it is because I lack the fatherly love from a young age or whether it is because I have started living with boys (that I wanted to have a gap filled in.) There is a really cute thai boy. Yes, every one says he is cute because of the way he is undecisive and will say 'O.K' to everything anyone asks from him. He is small, but not very small for my age. (He wears really thick-soled shoes to school to try and look tall) At the very 1st term, he was very open and he played what most people would not even think about before saying,'Ha, gay!!!' Last year of the summer term, I started opening up to people. I realised one of my roomates is gay, and I started to wonder whether I was gay, after he talked about his feelings towards the people he fancies. This year, I have gotten into the same room as the thai boy. At this point, I would like to clarify that I like hugging people a lot. Ever since being in the same room as the gay guy (because he opened up???), I have started hugging roomates. I have asked to hug the thai boy before, but he has abruptly refused sometime last year. I guess that's when most guys has grown up and started to become more 'manly' (independent). This year, I hugged him as he is my roomate, and finally (given in?) to let me hug him. Signs I am gay: 1. I had dreams where I had sex with him, but he had female sex organs. 2. I really like touching him. Hugging counts. He rejects me the moment it gets weird. 3. I would choose to spend my life with him, no questions asked. Over any girl as well. Signs I am straight: 1. It is just him I like to have physical contact. 2. I *tried* watching gay porn. I didn't like it, and it did not turn me on. Please :help: Thank you.
I never really liked gay porn and find that I would prefer be with a lot of women than most men. But every now and then there is the cute boy where I can feel it in my stomach. It's strange, though I wouldn't consider myself bisexual because there would never be the spark in the relationship for me. You might experiment or have a physical relation ship with a guy or a girl, but what really matters is who you would want to be in a real relationship with.
Ever heard of the Kinsey Scale?? Its not perfect but I prefer it to Bi, Gay, Straight labels because it allows for a little more fluidity. Here is a image describing it: http://i644.photobucket.com/albums/uu166/caydenmccutie/KINSEYSCALE.png I land between 4 and 5 on the scale but you could be 1 or 2??? just a way of identifying. idk it helped me out
