What are you thinking?

I'm thinking I should learn French.

 

what should i have with BBQ for supper

 

I need to take a shower.

 

I have an English final in a couple hours but I don't want to get out of bed.

 

I just lurve sneezing and seeing snot rockets on my shirt ^_^ It's my favorite part about sneezing uncontrollably /sarcasm

 

Yay! 65 degrees out! I'm wearing jeans

 

It's thundering. Hoping it rains soon.

 

I want him out of my fucking head.

 

My dad calls me this morning from work just to inform me that I snore like a freight train.

 

So you're the one that stole our thunder Give it back! The rain seems to have stopped here so y'all may get it soon.

 

My dad's in one of his moods again. I want to cry. I hate living here.

 

Woot! It's raining again......

 

I don't want to go to campus. Don't want to do anything except lie around and be left alone but can't happen. I'll probably be late anyway. And I'm really pissed and anxious and shit and kind of wish I had a drink

 

that stuff is hard to deal with I know. The dreams stay there for a while but there's plenty of people that know what you're going through, even me. (*hug*)

 

I can't stand it at home. Time to run away to starbucks.

 

My 6 year old nephew snores too LOL. It's funny yet cute

 

OMERGADH..... I just saw a Hotwire commercial with a a gay couple in it!..... It's gonna be awkward when my family sees it, since its on a show they are recording.

 

I've been a complete mess this past week and thought it was my meds screwing with me. Called the doc, he said to keep taking the meds because I haven't got to a therapeutic dose yet to where I'll be able to feel better. I fucking hate bipolar disorder.

 

Last day of school today. I am officially a junior. It was a whole lot less glamorous than I thought it was going to be.

Oh and now I get to deal with anti-depressant side effects... yay... (I thought I was going to throw up after my chem exam and that's not good since we can't leave the rooms)

 

oh my gawd that's pretty scary...

LOL I was listenin to this cuz I was curious and then this crazy ass loud noise at like 22 secs burst outta my external speakers/woofer and i was like "JESUS!" XD

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So if i apply to Al-Marah Arabians now.....like and let's say they accept me in a few months or whatever--cuz I don't think it's a quick thing---....but see the problem is gettin there. But wait...if I'll hopefully be havin a job durin those months....then I could have the money to transport not just myself if I take the plane (if I still don't have a license/car) but also my weights. cuz they're these adjustable dumbbells that each total like 50lbs and well I think I'd need basically the same amount of a plane ticket to take them along....

or maybe I should apply later when I'm livin with dad...I dunno...

course then there's the extremely likely possibility they won't accept me, and then I'm fuckin screwed cuz it's like so perfect and has Arabians and they're my favourite breed and they pay a stipend that's like pretty decent....and there's really no other apprenticeships like it and college costs money and is greedy and they're scumbags and fuck them I don't need them.

and i say it's so possible they won't take me cuz well....i dunno. Like i just hope the universe and shit doesn't screw me over and just lets me have this.

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Y'know what would be really fuckin nice? Top Surgery like right fuckin now. I want this shit covered and i shouldn't have to wait and save to get the shit i fuckin need. How magical and amazing it would be if this very day it got covered like totally all over the place? i'd start settin shit up right now. Go with some awesome person who's not an asshole and wants fuckin therapy for surgery. fuck that noise. Oh but as usual it's a-okay for a cis guy to get top surgery and no one ever has said "oh but ya need therapy and shit for it sooo..."

and it's like my insurance does cover surgery for gynecomastia, so you'd think since my insurance is gonna be covering my T cuz I changed my marker to M with them, that we could swing it for surgery right? But when i talked about this with Mick and my doctor at the borum the first time i ever went there, they basically said it couldn't get covered...but I think we could try but i dunno....I think I'll ask about it again next time i go....and who knows when that'll be...>_>