What are you thinking?

I've tried to get over her for over five years now. I've convinced myself that I am only in awe of her perfect blend of amazingly compatible personality traits planted within very attractive physical features. But my convincing tactics have failed me when it comes to her. I need to win this internal debate against this overwhelming attraction, because life goes on, and someday, I'll meet someone else with the same phenomenal traits, right? God! I'm still hung up on her.

 

Huh, reminds me of this pic:

 

A male gay couple full on making out on the tram, in Nottingham... In Nottingham... In Homophobia capital of the UK.

AWESOME! My day was made yesterday.

 

Today's the day I'm going to see my buuuuuuuddies!

 

I need to find some sort of group out here that gives me some friends and some focus etc. But that is easier said than done in Qatar.

Man, sometimes this country blows!

 

Why DID you go to Qatar anyway...it just doesn't sound like a fun place to be...

 

I'm mega happy for a friend :-D

 

Haha, it pretty much isn't a fun place to be! (Unless you go go-karting - that was awesome!)

And I came out here for a job - They are building a massive new port and I came out to do environmental monitoring on it. I applied for a marine position and they gave me a 50/50 position which in turn as become a 100% not marine position :lol:

So yeah, I pretty much ended up shooting myself in the foot regarding the entire thing. But hey, I guess it's experience? haha.

 

I was wondering how I could enter a drag show and then I started to go off on a trail of thoughts about how I would have to help out with the community and though I'd love to, I have such a hard time taking direction and I'm worried that I would mess something up, get a few people mad just because I need so much direction an explaining. Then I thought to myself, " I've never preformed before.. I'd probably mess up.."

I clearly need to let go of these fears.

 

Why do I continuously forget how everyone out here is a selfish asshole?! Really! I thought after last week I would have remember that.

Well, screw them and their...whatever it is.

I'm just gonna get drunk by myself. Assholes!

 

At the gyno nervous as hell waiting for my turn.

 

Ah, the week off college. It seems to so blessedly long, when you plan to do nothing but sit around gaming, writing and ecing. But the days slip away, and the end draws near. Soon, college will begin again, and more exams will come. Where did this week go?????????

 

Ain't it funny that time goes slow when you're bored but it goes by in a flash when you're having fun? It should be the other way around. I'm glad you had fun though

 

IT HAS BEGUN.

First one dog barks. Then the other one whines, and then suddenly, they're howling nonstop for an HOUR STRAIGHT.

 

Shout out to Monika for last night. It feels good to have friends from EC who you can associate with outside of the forums.

Shout out to our Final Fantasy guild for not being judgemental. Yes I totally told them everything about me... and someone followed suit (*hug*). Wasn't to anyone in person but to essentially total strangers who are now friends.

 

Just became a full member today. Pretty excited about my new privileges, although I'm sure I won't use them as much as I thought I would.

 

Private messages most likely.

I also comment on pictures too.

 

Yeah private messages was what made me request to be a full member. I probably won't comment on pictures. I've never looked at anyone else's pictures yet, come to think of it. But several people have said they wished they could PM me, so I'm glad I can do that now.

 

That video finally loaded!

 

We shall see...