bisexual strugglin for a normal realtionship ~~~~~

I can relate to what you mean when you say you feel ungrateful for not appreciating your current boyfriend. I was in a relationship with a girl for a few months and as time went on I became more distant, questioned myself, and now identify to myself and a few friends as bi. She was totally infatuated with me but I just didn't have the same feelings for her in the least and when I imagine myself in a relationship I picture myself with the ideal guy as opposed to a girl.

Don't feel guilty for exploring this part of yourself, we are all looking for answers and you are defiantly not alone in this (*hug*) I'm still finding myself and so are others. If your current relationship with your boyfriend just isn't cutting it, maybe you should talk to him about it and go from there.

 

How long have you been with your boyfriend? In my former relationship sometimes I doubted if I was in love with my partner because I had never had those butterfly feeling either or anything else during the day for that matter. Then something would happen, we would go for a walk or I looked at my partner in the right ligt or whatever and I just knew that this was love.
I guess that I am trying to say that you should go with your gut feeling, because usually that tells the truth. But I really understand what you are going through, having been through something similar.
It will work out, but you should talk to him about it if he doesn't already know. Maybe there is some other greater underlying problem.

 

I think you need to remember that what you are feeling is not wrong. Don't condemn yourself for it. As human's sometimes we feel things we don't necessarily want to feel, but you can't really change the heart you are given.....

I guess the only advice I have is do some soul searching. And talk to your boyfriend about how you feel, because honesty is extremely important in a healthy relationship. Maybe you could ask him if you could take a break from the relationship, just to do some exploring. Maybe you'll decide that you really love him and want to be with him. Maybe you'll decide otherwise. But you shouldn't just ignore your feelings and put them on the back burner, as that never tends to work for very long......