What Are You Thinking?

Hmm is there a friend you can stay with overnight or something. That kind of physical violence...

 

Gah, these blasted hormones. O, puberty. Wherefore hast thou thrown me in my own thoughts?. This always bloody happens. I’m quite happy with the way things are for the moment, knowing that int he near future it will be different.
Then my bloody hormones get in the way. I either don’t know who I am anymore or I do know but I can’t bloody keep quiet.
For shame!

 

Nope. Nowhere to go. I'm stuck until I can afford to move out.

 

Have you made any progress with student loans?

 

Financial aid covered everything. But still need a living income.

 

Don't want to go into work today. Fortunately, though, I'll be working in a different store, and my supervisor will be one of the people who transferred out of my store, and I quite liked her, so hopefully things will go well. Also, this particular store is less busy than mine, so that's a plus. I hope these 5.5 hours go by quickly...

Even if things go rough, though, all I have to do is think about the object of my affection, and everything will get a little better... He makes everything better... :love:

 

No staying on campus/dorms? They have meal plans I think. And then a side job for the essentials. I think thats what my friend did.

 

Here, you can use that to live off as well. Is there nothing like that that you have access too?

 

Community college so no on-campus residency.

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Hex- Not enough to live on, but I've got about three hundred bucks remaining from tuition. May have assistance programs on campus but need to look into them.

 

I've never been so excited for a musical 0.0

 

That, or perhaps you could contact an LGBT charity? I know you have already, but perhaps with a specific focus to helping you move out?

 

I left something at the store.
Now I have to go hunt it down. Boo.

 

What was it?

 

Um... I keep falling asleep after masturbating. This is new.

 

Funny how my "friend" calling only reminds me, slightly, that I'd like to hear from some of my real ones for once...

 

Funny how much more enjoyable paid surveys are when I pretend not to have a TV.

 

Cetaphil lotion. But my dad just found it! :lol:
He had put it away with something else and forgot.
I looked all over the place, turned my car inside out and called the store twice (no answer).

 

Today my masked cracked and people saw some of my darkness. I made a few incredibly dark and nihilistic comments over the day. Somebody looked in my planner, 95% of which looks the ravings of a mad man. Particular the pages which are just the word Maggot over and over again. In psychology we took some sort of mood inventory. Less than negative 6 is a very bad mood. I scored negative 14.

 

oh wow

 

I hate doing my own shots. I think I nearly hit a nerve last week... I really need gel but I can't be arsed to book another appointment and fuck around when I already have what I need.

My voice has also cracked a bit, again, and it's nice. Instead of my mother embarrassing me, and practically outing me in public when she slips up on my name/pronouns, I can just reply in a deep man voice, "Who the hell are you talking to?" and laugh while all of the embarrassment falls back on her and she ends up coming across as senile. I'm having fun.