What Are You Thinking?

So, maybe I didn't make myself clear to my friend, since he pretty much started misgendering people at the support group right off the bat, with "Cya, man!" and "Who was that girl with the short hair?" He's a future ally, but has a bit to learn, first. What matters is that he's here and ready to learn.

 

Nixon was a shitty dude and all, don't get me wrong, but this puts it in a bit of perspective:

Spoiler

 

Perfection. Yeah. Nixon was a shifty ass but can't deny he made a huge impact on foreign relations, especially with China.

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I need to go to a mental hospital...

No, really. One of my characters has a backstory that hinges on him escaping from a stay at one and I've got research, people. :lol:

 

That sounds like a good idea, as long as you phone the institution you want to study and get permission on honest grounds. On the other hand, if it's anything like Australia, the nurses and doctors in the psychiatric ward would be extremely hostile to the ward being treated as a curiosity for anyone but doctors and nurses-in-training and public servants.

 

Found my 6th grade yearbook...how embarrassing!

Wow, I'm mature...I'm throwing shade at my old teachers.

 

I'm practicing pharmacy calculations while listening to music on Spotify so that the studying is less painful. I can't multi-task between studying biology-related courses and listening to music though. 100% of my focus has to go toward the material in that case.

 

Interesting, I never thought of it that way.

 

In the yearbook, I found pictures of the people who would be the seniors in my French class. I'm way too happy about this!

Edit: Oh my god, "wittle" pictures of the slightly older members of our group. So fucking cute.

 

I am watching this really feminine cooking show. Which means I am at really bad emotional place. I don't like eating and cooking, but I have moments like this when I feel like if I give up and be what the society and my family wants to have, I'll be happy and my life will make sense

I have about twenty unused cookbooks. Each one represents my desire to fit and meet the expectations of others.

Do you remember the Stepfords wives with Nicole Kidman? I am like her - I don't fit. There is a moment when she says: but they seem to be so happy! Let's try, maybe we can be like them and be happy too.

Needless to say, it doesn't work

 

Back to reading whatever I can find...
Any suggestions for casual reading?

 

I can't be bothered anymore, no one likes me so why should I try

 

Books I've recently read/currently reading

The God Delusion by Richard Dawkins
The Greatest Show on Earth: The Evidence for Evolution
The Stranger Beside Me by Ann Rule (2008 edition)
Meat Market Female Flesh under Capitalism by Laurie Penny

And I'm waiting for these books to arrive...

Science of Ghosts: Searching for Spirits of the Dead by Joe Nickell
Perfect Girls, Starving Daughters: How the Quest for Perfection is Harming Young Women by Courtney E. Martin
The African Dream by Che Guevara
Atheism and the Case Against Christ by Matthew Mccormick
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Hope that helps, Emulator.

 

Tonight may be the night that I end it all

 

Thanks, it helps.

 

(*hug*)(*hug*) Dont do that mate! Were here for you, let someone know how you feel and help. (*hug*)


Im beyond tired, barely functioning...

 

I've tried doing that...

 

(*hug*)(*hug*)(*hug*)

 

Set my alarm for 9:30 AM. I wanted a lie in but I have a lot of work to do today.

Woke up at 1:30 PM. I did the same thing last weekend. Not happy!

 

That's happened to me too before /:
sorry

 

Ugh, I can't wait until exams are over. I'm already feeling sick and run down :sleep: