Dysphoria's a bitch, ain't it? I know that feel, bro. Hang in there. (*hug*) --- On another note, I am stupidly happy. This has been a pretty good day.
A blog reblogged my selfie. They probaby reblog every tagged selfie but still- kind of a confidence booster. Needed that tonight.
I've accomplished so much yet equally so little today at the same time. I woke up at 11 am so that should explain it. Forget alarms, I should start setting hand grenades to go off at 8 am every day. The funny thing is that I am an extremely light sleeper; its just that my mattress is so damn comfortable that even though my mind is complete awake my body literally won't let me get out. I have to throw myself out of bed most mornings. I could just doing that thing...where you like go to bed at reasonable times....and get a healthy amount of sleep... But who has time for that? Oh, what about firecrackers... under my pillow......
I'm not out to extended family. We were talking and joking about pictures people put on facebook earlier that they shouldn't because it could get them in trouble. And my grandmother mentioned pictures of two guys being together, just regular picture-wise, should never be posted. Kind of made me question how she feels about the whole thing. Especially since in all hopeful likelihood I'll have a bf soon. Whole situation was just really awkward.
It's going to take a while to get used to seeing all the new staff members, and members in new positions. All of them were the perfect fit for the job as well.
(*hug*) I myself, when I'm not curled up in a fetal position cursing my life, enjoy a sort of sadistic pleasure from the idea that one day, somewhere within the next few years, I'll tear out said ovaries and humbly request, if possible though not socially acceptable, to take my reproductive organs home so that I may beat it with a stick and exact my gendered revenge.
After 2 years and over 8,000 posts, I finally got my username capitalized. That's going to take some getting used to..
I'm thinking about how I don't know if I want a relationship or fuck buddy or to be a good healthy person or my self-destructive self and I miss my therapist and ex girlfriend and why are all my friends abandoning me and people think I'm a bad person when I'm really not and I really need a girl to love and love me and help me through this and fix me and I need to go to bed. Also why are people hating gays? I wish the world was more evolved. Being gay or trans or whatever someone may be is such a beautiful thing because we are all diverse and unique and it's a shame and a crime to not see that and appreciate it, but to reject it. I need to pee.
two things 100 percent guaranteed to burn every time: my bare skin sans-sunblock on a summer's day, and any pasta dish my wife attempts to cook! lol
What does a gamer do when his favorite game is down for maintenance? He goes to bed and plays with his phone until he falls asleep!
Two hot chicks are at it on my dashboard. This isn't fucking good guys. This is super TMI, but I've been sexually frustrated all damn night (okay, month but whatever) and holy balls this sucks ass. Doesn't help that my friends were talking about bondage tape earlier in the night either. FUCK.
