What Are You Thinking?

Aww, you didn't look happy at all. :< You look much better as yourself now though.

 

Ugh, I just went on a long jog and I'm beat. I don't like exercising, but I know it's good for me .

 

i know i dont. even when i wasn't UNhappy necessarily (like that pic was a pretty fun day i remember) i wasn't happy and i never realized till i looked back on these pictures and saw how i looked like i was always about to cry. i was actually struggling with anorexia at the time.. i never took pics before when i was actually a normal weight and was muuuch better looking cuz i thought i was fat.

and thaaanks! that means a lot seriously <3333!

 

I must say, you were definitely meant to be a woman.

 

awwws you reallly think sooo? i always thought i looked like a girl even when i was a boy but i still always had gay guys and straight girls hitting on me XD legit probz every time i went out of the house someone tried to get with me. i didn't mind the gay guys but the straight girls always made me sooo dysphoric :S

 

Will there ever be a time when I'll wake up in the morning and feel happy to be alive instead of being disappointed that I didn't pass away in my sleep?

 

Kim Possible episodes on YouTube?? Life complete, bye bye social life!

 

Its so awkword when my father asks why I am not always chasing after girls.... I want to say that I am batting for the other team, but that really wouldn't be good... So I just say I am shifting my focus to other things, like my studies... :dry:

 

Yeah. You had a fairly feminine look even then.

 

Yeah, straight guys (the few that gave me attention) always put me on edge. So I stuck with bisexual and lesbian women, least I could be the 'man' in the relationship if anything sparked.

Honestly, you could've passed for a pre-T transguy back then, me thinks.

 

Yeah, you really do look great stef! I'm jealous. I wish I looked as good.

 

yeaah i defs understand that. right now if you date guys you're the girl in the relationship and thats not fair . after you start T you can just date who you feel like cuz you will just be you and that will probz be aawesome <333 not to mention yaaay if you date gay guys you get to stick to the community XD! jellllly (straight guys suck dick... metaphorically)!

and actually at one point this lesbian girl i knew was convinced i was an ftm looolz. i just let everyone believe i was a gay male but everyone seemed suspicious of even that. that was after i started HRT for a bit though loolz and my hair was longer than it is in that pic XD i think my voice reaaaally puts me over the edge cuz it is LEGIT cisfemale XD

 

Im comfortable being gay... almost.... alcohol solves lifes problems

 

"I didn't know [insert my dad's name here] had a son."

Me: "He doesn't talk about me much." *tries to spit in a manly fashion but ends up eating it*

Awkward.

 

"The boy's a lunatic! I can see why they don't talk about him much..."

 

loooolz OMG i wish you could "like" comments on here XD that seriously gave me a biiig smile XD!

 

:roflmao: I was really hoping someone would get that.

 

That was basically me the first time I tried to pass (at my support group). I overdid it. :lol:

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I made someone cry!

...with my writing. They were reviewing a story I'd posted and seems to have stricken a chord. Which is the best thing, besides a contract, any writer can ask for.

 

What kinds of things do you write? I love seeing/reading the things people create.

 

Mulan! <3!!!

Not sure what's happening today. Normally I'm the voice of reason among my friends but today.... well. . I think I need to work on getting more sleep. Interestingly enough, during the midst of my descent into exhausted delirium I discovered that my best friend is an unofficially diagnosed aspie too!! I knew I loved her!!! Why we are just now discovering this is beyond me. :lol:... she is the pip to my merry <3.