I identify as gay because that is what I mainly feel, I am attracted to guys but I have not really crushed on any of the guys I know. Maybe its because most of them are quite immature. I've kissed two guys before, but i was tipsy. I guess what i'm saying is my mind is kinda messed up :/. And I have to find out if the feelings towards my best friend (girl) are friendly, I don't think of her sexually at all (no not at ALL) but I like hanging around her because I can be myself and make all the gay jokes I want. when I think about it I only think about guys sexually (that means i'm gay right?) I'm sorry if i am ranting but emotions are so confusing ughhh. So I guess the question that im asking is that if I am only sexually attracted to guys Im gay?
Well are you sure you don't feel anything emotional? would you want to be with a guy like on a romantic date or something or would you rather be with a girl? do you feel attracted to any girls emotionally or sexually?
I can see myself doing all the things a straight guy would do, but with a guy. I even WANT those things. maybe I haven't met the right guy? I don't know. I don't have any sort of sexual attraction to girls and when I look to the future i cant see myself being the kind of "normal" family, I would like to marry the man I love one day. (i know it sounds stupid) but what i never feel an emotional attraction to guys. And have to come out to my friends again saying "oh well i dont know anymore" its probably just paranoia.
I think emotions are easier to change. You can't (or its really hard) change what you are sexually attracted to. What you are explaining is that you aren't finding a guy to click with on the same level as this girl. However, there are alot of guys out there, you will find one that you can click with on a higher level - you just need time.
Your age could very well contribute to it. A lot of people don't start crushing until college either because they have no interest in high school students, or simply because of biology. Wait a few years, I highly doubt you'll get to 20 without a single crush.
