What Are You Thinking?

What else is going to go wrong.... my television isn't working. It's playing sound, but the screen is mostly black except for this line going across the middle.... Life is so wonderful.

 

I'm debating in my head whether or not I should make a cup of coffee. I really want one but it's 7p.m. As you can see, this is a major life dilemma.

 

Coffee is never appropriate. Never.

 

But it tastes so good :icon_sad:

 

Hey why don't you pm one of the staff here they are all amazing and I'm sure would be happy to speak to you.

 

My flatmate started cooking pasta then went to her room and didn't come back; I went in an hour later and it was on fire. I put it out then moved the pan onto a mat. The pan was so hot it burnt through the mat, burnt a layer of skin off my hand and damaged the counter.

She refuses to accept any responsibility, reported me to housekeeping and now I am being fined £200 to fix the burn.
So basically I stopped the building catching on fire and am being charged £200 for it. I'm gonna have to use all my savings paying for it and now I can't afford tickets to visit my Dad and baby Sister. So basically I'm really upset.

 

One more exam for the rest of 2013, and I cannot focus on studying for it at all. >_<

Guess it's back to watching Fairy Tail for me..!

 

I know but you can talk to me here if you want.

 

I just feel like everything has fallen apart in the last week or so...and it's completely overwhelming me. And, it seems that I either can't talk to people, or those I can talk to are just ignoring me. And all I've done all weekend is go from panic attack to panic attack and cry in between. I can't wait to go back to work tomorrow. I desperately need the distraction.

 

Moving in with the person I love.

I mean my friend.

...

I mean, my ex.

I'm not sure if this is a great idea after all.

 

Christ, what a bitch!

 

Just came out to a friend, and he has been great about it. Felt so sick and weak telling him, but so glad I did.
Darn it, though. I would have sworn he was too. lol Oh, well. ^^ Good times.

 

Found out one of my high school "friends" is bi. Through Facebook. How come I never find out stuff like this through other people? I feel the urge to click on the profile page of everyone I know to see if they're gay or bi but never told me.

 

Well tomorrow's not so far away. Believe me when I say I'm definitely not ignoring you even if I don't reply straight away.
You know when we have talked about you jumping to the worst case scenario I'm sure this is just the same and I'm sure noone is ignoring you it's just you assume that because of the state you are in.
Take some deep breaths, everyone here on EC are here for you to talk to, you are never alone. Just write it all out to me if that will help. Keep your chin up better times are just around the corner.

 

I have 2 friends, the friend I hear from every 6 months and the one that stops being friends with me every week.

The more I think about friendship the more I feel that I've never had a real friend, ive certainly never been anyones best friend. Rejection and loneliness does not mix well with this depression. I call it depression that would mean I was another way at some point. Cant ever actually remember feeling any different.

 

I know you're not ignoring me. It wasn't you I was talking about...or anyone on here.
I want to write it all out, but not so publicly. This is SO frustrating!
I hope you're right. Tomorrow isn't far away, and I have therapy again tomorrow night, so that will help, hopefully.

 

It appears that my sexual orientation has swung straight again after spending a couple months alternating between lesbian and asexual. :/ I kind of wish it would just pick something and be done with it.

 

I'm making this project way harder then it needs to be...

 

Really skinny/small cute guy friend makes a good point: it must be rather difficult to find clothes that fit well. Maybe being absurdly skinny (not necessarily unhealthily skinny) isn't all it's cracked up to be...