What Are You Thinking?

It's about time I stopped being so passive and donned the mask of my creativity. I am alot bigger than the problems and people around me. I'm starting to realize alot of my issues stem from me supressing the enigmatic, unpredictable, gifted being that is myself but no longer shall I sit on the sideline because other's will get "upset" if I push the limit or they'll become "envious" and snobby though I have never aimed to make them feel useless by showing my own capabilities.

As manic and narcissistic as this sounds, I swear it's the truth but i'll be damned if I do it anymore.

 

I'm going to talk to my tattoo artist tomorrow about a new wrist tattoo. I've spent a LONG time thinking about this, and observing at my work. I do not think a wrist tattoo will be an issue. There are a lot of other people who have visible tattoos...so I think I'm going to go for it. I'm excited. But, is it sick that part of the reason I like getting tattoos so much is the pain factor involved. It's almost like cutting...but I'm left with something gorgeous rather than ugly. Does that make sense? Does that make me sound absolutely NUTS?

 

Oh no 5am is coming

 

Yep, definitely my favorite holiday...

 

People are unwilling to be the change they want to see, because being is significantly more troublesome than sitting by the sidelines waiting for someone to do something. Giving up before you've even started is easier than saying "fuck society". Invalidating the opinions of others because they are perceived as never being able to understand is part of the problem.

So I sit and I watch and I listen. I see people do nothing, but moan about the fact nothing is changing. I watch people fly their flags on appropriate days and from behind their computers,and I am struck at the number of armchair warriors, experts in everything, who do nothing. Not everyone can do something, but they can do something about their own life. Regardless of perceived/real barriers, regardless of situations, if you do not strive to achieve how can you achieve? If you give up before you've even started, if you do nothing in your own life to change things what real difference are you making? If all you do is make excuses, even valid ones, nothing changes. Nothing.

With that said given that I've been told on more than one occasion I'm unemployable because I live in a deprived area known for having a high concentration of forcibly housed travelers, and my lack of secondary education qualifications, the sort of rented housing I live in, and I am slightly miffed. Very miffed. Oh well, if at first you do not succeed (and receive a rather to the point response which considers absolutely nothing other than perceived ideas of who you are and how you'll impact on reputation of the company) try, try again. I must dazzle them so much they forget all their worries about me potentially being unreliable and prone to thievery.

SO MANY THOUGHTS.

 

Classes at 8:00 a.m. suck.

 

No school plz? :l
Ugh, today will suck.

 

I'm going to miss Empty cages. New forum skin..? :3 (since empty Closests is still visitable on M4-purple)

 

I feel like my life is falling apart and everyone's insane.

 

And so commences the freak out...

 

Being gay is not easy.....but it's fun. guys are so sexy hot

 

F it, I think I'm sick and it's not even warm out.

On the plus side I finally grabbed some stuff on a sale; my old sports gear is getting really nasty from wear, like my one jersey/shirt thing is like sagging down past my waist after an hour or two and it smells terrible.

Now to actually use that stuff and get in shape, ugh.

 

I don't want to shovel the driveway. :tears:

 

Why are people complaining about the April Fools modifications? NBD yo

 

I died my hair yesterday, and its bloody blue Supposed to be black, but there is a kind of blue shine to it.

 

To do list...
*Get up and get ready: Done
*Treat her to Starbucks: In progress
*Take her shopping: Pending...

Oh I hope everything goes as planned... I need to give everyone more time to finish decorating for the party.. Dx

 

Well you're half right, everyone is insane. But you're probably doing about as well at life as any of us other nutters are

 

I'm thinking I just registered to a very cool forum!

 

I feel like I have a sign on me that says "I'm about to have a mental breakdown." I wouldn't even be in class today if there wasn't a group activity worth 50 points. I'm getting sick of people asking if I'm okay and telling me I look like shit. I just want to get through today.