What Are You Thinking?

Bored, tired, omfg i need to get some rest.
Do. Not. Want. To. Sleep.
did I even get to sleep last night tho? Ugh. Yay paranoia

 

i'm slacking with the gym. going to work out tomorrow, wednesday and thursday. i usually have a workout day and then a rest day for the weekdays. weekends are rest days.

another thing on my mind, i think the time is coming for me to get the huh out the closet. my family as of late have been questioning about why i'm going to new york so often and of course, i've been lying to them because i've been trying to get lgbt counseling as well as getting to know other lgbt people my age. you know, two things that would make my life a bit easier would be to have a car of my own as well as there being an lgbt center in jersey. i need to go to a gay club out in jersey one time. i'm also getting interested in having a boyfriend.

 

Roll Tide. Roll Ride. Roll Tide.

 

Going on a roadtrip this week!

 

penis... penis... penis... penis... penis... penis... neil patrick harris... penis... penis... penis...

 

I HATE my family. I get away from school and the fucking bullies I used to call friends there and everyone else and visit family down south I've not seen in a year and I keep getting fucking TALKED OVER!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! I'm going to brick you all in the head soon if you don't fucking listen to me when I speak. Yeah, I'm just family. Just Cousin Jasmin who you haven't seen in a year. Lets talk over her because she's not important!

 

School school school school school school tomorrow >_>

I'm SO pissed.

 

"You should try growing up instead of to the sides." Never heard that one before. Not only did I get called fat, but also short, and I'm not even that short, I'm the tallest of my immediate family. I didn't let that comment get to me though, since it came from my grandfather's sister, and she's old and stuff, and keeps forgetting my name, so yeah.

 

Two things:
First, you're a great guy so it doesn't matter what anyone says
Second, refer to the first.

 

Thanks, I appreciate that (*hug*).

You're an awesome guy yourself

 

(!) (!) (!) (!) (!) right back atcha!

 

LSU: 13-1 Bama: 12-1

So why is Bama the national champion?

 

people are weird.

 

I know I keep saying this, BUT -- I don't have a gut anymore? What the fuck happened? It's hilarious I feel like a fat guy trying to be tight, yet I actually am a tight dude now. Wondering when I'll just realize this is me now. Hell, a cashier at the movie theater may have even thought I was cute and she was hot! She looked me over with her eyes. WTF lol? I was the dude girls avoided like the black plague before... what's happening??? I like it but, jeez dude - a light switch change like that takes time getting used to.

 

I need something. Actually, I need many things. I dunno how I will get any of these things tho >_>

 

dude, great job!!!!!!!

 

I think I might be getting a six pack too lol. Just wondering when my mind will catch up. For example slouching over, I think my gut is hanging out - I look down, no gut. I mean even at Walmart the other day apparently a hot girl smiled at me - then my mom noticed behind me she pointed me out to her mom lol. That's not me. Yet, somehow it is. All I need is confidence from a psych now (some adoptee problems) and I'm set. Like 'Just Friends' set (Ryan Reynolds movie).

 

That Alabama defensive unit should be arrested for rape/molestation.

 

So long, partner.

 

I'm off to sleep. Or rather, try to sleep.