What Are You Thinking?

I screwed up with someone special to me. I fear that it cannot be fixed and I will lose that person. Fuck you sexual libido! FUCK YOU!

I'm scared....

 

Surgery day. Just a wee bit nervous but thankfully it'll finally be over.

 

get off my back parents. I DO NOT WANT A BOYFRIEND

 

So I had a dream where I hit an old man while I was driving. I only broke his arm, so it wasn't too bad. Lol I woke up and was freaked out a bit.

 

Maybe I should have waited before I got into college.

 

I had a dream where i beat the shit out of these two girls in my choir class and i don't even hate either of them. They are my friends lol i just get why i had the dream.

 

So, it's 9PM and I find myself still at work. This has been happening with alarming frequency, recently.

I'm just more focused at this hour than I am during the day. Too bad the reast of the world disagrees about what constitutes proper working hours

 

Who in their right mind would pick Rob Niedermayer? Great 3rd-4th liner, but he's not gonna score. =\

 

Gonna make sure he wished he never hurt him or went near him! >_>

BUT if i did that he wouldn't like it at all for going against what he told me.

 

I feel like doo-doo. :/
Good thing I have Fall Break to look forward to, cuz I definitely need one...

 

Why am I so apathetic? And why am I so misanthropic? I figured after I recovered from surgery I would feel more enthusiastic to live life, but nope... I'm back in the rut.

On a side note, I was invited by my former supervisor to go to a play for free tonight.

 

O Weird Dreams. I wish I could remember you to the full extent I did an hour ago. I went back to college in Buffalo or something in this dream. I had a very strange depiction of the dorms. Super Weird.

 

Is it sad that I'm 19 years old and have no clue how to mail a letter? (like, what goes on the envelope and such?)

Hell, I wasn't even 100% sure of my ZIP Code or my actual mailing address...

 

Fuck you, mom.

 

First round of mid-terms: finished.
However, I have three philosophy essays to write by next week.:bang:

 

Some girls are very confusing... I wish they would wear a giant sign that says "HAY! I'M GAY!" or something. -_-

 

Yay for new ACLs but boooo for pain sooo much pain.

 

Fuck this shit. I can't deal with your problems anymore.

 

God damn I hate when people burst into my room while I'm trying to sleep. -_-'

Also, fardels.

 

have i mentioned how much i love project runway because i mean its amazing