What are you thinking?

I'm an idiot. I miss him amazingly and wish I never put him through the hell I put him through. Without him I wouldn't be here today. I owe him my life and more. My rainbow socks are kind of obnoxious. I'll never think of them the same after this morning. How traumatizing. I'll never get over it. I feel so used...

I'm hungry on a lighter note. Halloween dance tonight? Yay for murdered graduates...and I need to call Mosher at 2:30. Note to self...

Omnom Korn <3

 

I need to lose some weight. Pity chocolate is so good

 

Neighbours, I hate my neighbours.

 

I think I'll interpret the fact that we both really want to see eachother again as a really good sign. Seriously, I had such an incredibly good day yesterday, although today has already involved a massive nose bleed, making it instantly less awesome than yesterday.

Let my story give you hope. Last week, I wasn't even contemplating the fact that I could be at the start of what looks like it will be a good relationship, but now I am through a bizarre mix of circumstances. I don't think I even knew he was gay until about a week ago, but I've known him for a couple of months anyway.

 

I'm going to the mall! I'm getting out of the house and having a life! I'm seeing my only drama-less friend who no longer goes to my school and who I haven't seen in three months!

And the Lovegame Chu Fu Ghettohouse Fix remix with Marilyn Manson just came on my ipod. This day is gonna be awesome XD

 

I think "reciprocity" is one of, if not my most, least favorite words in the English language. Generally I love words, but not that one.

Also, I fail epically at starting conversations.

 

I'm really sleepy, but if I take a nap now I'll be up all night.

 

Why is it so windy today? I nearly fell over trying to walk past the library.

 

Pfff ! To many things to think about.

 

I know! But this also amused me, because I put black hair gel in my hair today and it was fairly motionless in the wind XD

 

I met a new gay boy at work today! We are going off tonight and he intends to introduce me to his friends at some point. Some of them are gay girls! Yay!

 

im thinkin, cant wait till tomoro nite. goin out for a few drinks with my pals. not dressin up tho.

 

I need to find other Halloween plans, this ones not working out. -____-

 

Wow what an interesting day its been! But its made me happy though.

 

Update: He has already had a girl call me, and she wants to meet me. Weeee.

 

I went to the mall, bought a Reptar shirt (yes, as in the Rugrats), drank energy drinks, and hung out with my friend's friends, who are all way cooler than mine. When one of them found out I was gay, she gave me a hug and said "Oh my god. I love you!" It's so nice not to get a weird look when coming out. For once.

 

Thinking about the girl I love and how I won't be able to see her until Wednesday

 

Holy shit. I'm watching Return of the Jedi. Leia is in the bikini.

How did I go 14 years without seeing this movie?

 

Are you sure you want to fantisize about Leia? She DID make out with her brother.