What are you thinking?

I'm thinking that I must need glasses, because when I looked at the thing where it says my mood, I thought it said, 'Indecent', instead of 'innocent'

 

I'm sexually submissive/passive and feel guilty about it. It's something that seems common in straight women...but I don't know, I'm not a straight woman. It feels weird to me that I like women who are dominant, in authority, or have some strange power imbalance over me (with consent, not in every day life). Maybe It's internalized homophobia or something, but I feel strange for not fitting the aggressive lesbian stereotype.

 

Why am I always too shy to talk to women?

 

My God is it hard to work up the courage to talk to someone about your... Um... Romantic intentions for them.

 

I love those pick up truck drivers with the jacked up trucks and their beards and how they drive really aggressively. Like I know you're not packing stop trying to pretend you are.

 

I wear glasses, and it also looks like 'indecent' to me as well. I think it might be the green coloring behind the word.

 

I love when I feel like shit then somebody does something crazy nice for me. Since coming out (so like 3 weeks now?) several people have said stuff (besides the inital "if you ever need anything" reactions) that fucking blow me away with kindness.

 

Been nearly four years since stuff happened that prevented me from staying active on this website...been over a year since I have made a single post.

Four years later and things have now changed a lot for me. Such a shame that I was unable to continue having Empty Closets be a larger part of my life. Or, I should say, a part of my life to begin with.

I thought about Empty Closets randomly, and I felt prompted to sign back in. I still somehow remember my login information.

Memories with some great people came flooding back. All at once. And I checked the wall posts that I am able to view.

Aldebaran, if for whatever reason you are still here, with a different account or something, or just so happen to check this, please remember that I never forgot about you. I wish we would have been able to stay in contact. And even though it might as well be impossible to talk to you ever again, I miss you. You may not remember me. But, I still remember you. And I am sorry that I was forced to stop responding to you randomly, but, you know, life happened. And this is the price I must pay for what I have done, nearly four years ago.

Now whenever I log on, which has been maybe five times in the past three years (might be mistaken, easily could be mistaken), I just feel so many emotions, and so much guilt, for I am unable to talk to people I was once close with.

And now, that may be permanent. I will never be able to talk to some people ever again.

I'm sorry.

 

I'm really glad to hear that (well, not the feeling like shit part, but...). You've had to deal with a lot lately and I'm glad there's people around you that are supportive.

 

Starting University next Monday. Wish time would pass faster though, I have everything ready now and I'm pretty bored.

 

Hey man I remember you! What's new?

 

Every time I reveal a vulnerability to someone, it blows up in my face. And people wonder why I've got some trust issues

 

Everyone I know is either getting engaged or expecting a child. And I'm just sitting here, playing video games or browsing EC.

 

Why did I move so far away where I know no one in a city I hate? Hope the bachelors will be worth it, at least. I wish I could be spending time with my crush instead. I feel lonely here.

 

I totally feel you on that one. I keep reminding myself that it's a marathon and not a sprint.

 

My pelvis hurts now...


But it was worth it.

 

Dog the bounty hunters wife was diagnosed with stage 2 throat cancer.

Also Kathy Griffins sister died yesterday from breast cancer.

 

Same. It sucks.