What are you thinking?

You talking about mock GCSEs? I just did those, and I've got plenty of advice to give if you need it.

 

Same here, but as a father.

 

Just spent half an hour replacing the bulbs in half a string of Christmas lights because they burned out... that half of the string works again, but now the other half doesn't.

 

So I'm in Seattle and we had to wake up at 2am to go to the airport to catch a 5:10am flight well anyway it's been 16 hours now and I'm so sleep deprived but I don't wanna go to bed at 5pm and wake up at 2am so I have to force myself to stay up.

 

Same. I'd maybe like to adopt kids in a few years but as of right now, I'm pretty volatile and emotionally unstable. Hopefully I can get better, but I wouldn't want to put a child through my mood swings!

 

This legal process just needs to be done with, so I can get my stuff changed. The dream is to have my name and gender marker changed before my second T anniversary, especially since I want to get my name out there in the local film scene before the next horror film festival in October.

 

Just got back from the Snow Bowl in Ann Arbor. It wasn't pretty, but we got it done.

 

Omg he's gayyyyyy. Pinch me now.

 

Just found out someone from my wedding party made some snide ass comment about my grandma when they were here.

Is she a great or perfect person? Fuck no, but if you're going to come in my fucking house and say one of my relatives is ugly, then you can get the fuck out and consider yourself unwelcome to ever come back--especially when it seems like it came out of nowhere and I'm pretty sure she didn't say anything to anyone who was over. Seriously, how fucking petty are you going to be, especially if you're one of those so called radicals who I'm sure has spoken out against being attacked for your appearance?

Seriously, I swear I'm somehow friending too many assholes and it's starting to piss me off--yet I'm the one who has problematic friends. Okay then. -_-

 

For some weird reason I had a dull ache on the left side of my head. Thank Tzeentch it only took a few painkillers to get rid of it

 

So happy for the first snow this winter! I'm gonna miss the weird 70 degree weather in November, I'll admit.

 

Thinking about the future. I'm torn between wanting to be a biological parent, or avoiding all the dysphoria that would follow as a result of pregnancy... But honestly, the thought of pregnancy terrifies me.

 

I feel like I've lost everything, including my mind.

 

We already had snow and it melted already

 

I've been thinking about starting a family so much lately. I always said I'd never want kids but here I am lol

 

I'm so scared for my future, I don't have any plans for what happens after receiving my A level results. I never expected myself to live till this day, truth be told.

I'm expected to pursue a course after I get back my results, provided I do well enough to enter local universities. But then again, I don't even have any interest in any fields. And assuming I do screw up badly (which is the result I'm actually expecting), then I could choose to retake my exams. But that again creates 2 more issues. If I did well enough, I can't retake as a school candidate; I have to fail at least one subject in order to be accepted back to the school, if not, I have to study on my own as a private candidate. What makes things worse is that the syllabus changes, so how on earth am I supposed to study without any (updated) school notes?

Just.. ugh. Thinking about the future just ruins my mood. I could try to stop thinking about it but the question of "what am I doing with my life" is such a pesky question that keeps bugging me time and time again. So many people are so excited with graduating but I'm just so afraid. I just wish I could stop existing.

 

(*hug*)

 

I have a dream of becoming a professional drummer and playing in a successful band, but I can't find the time and energy to practise at all. School takes time and when I'm home, I'm so tired... I want to play so bad, so I can be better at it, but I just can't find the time